August 31, 2006
HEY HEY HEY........................SUP MA PEOPLES..................WOW....HAVENT BEEN HERE IN A MINUTE....AND I HAVE JUST THAT RIGHT NOW........HOW ARE YOU MY FRIENDS....MY FAM................THE BAND HAS BEEN.....EXPLODING ALL OVER THE PLACE......WERE GETTING READY TO GO ON THE ROAD...AND WE ARE IN THE MIDDLE OF OUR SECOND CD................WELL LETS NOT SAY MIDDLE.....LETS SAY ....ONE OR TWO SONGS AWAY FROM FINISHING THE WRITING.....AND I MUST SAY..............I CANT WAIT FOR YOU TO HEAR IT...FEEL IT....................I AM SO SORRY IF YOU THINK i HAVE DESERTED YOU IN ANY WAY.....I HAVENT....BUT YOU KNOW I AM ALWAYS WITH YOU..........AND YES....I STILL CONSIDER MY SELF A BUSH WACKER......BUT IT IS SO MUCH DEEPER THAN THAT, RIGHT??? KINDA FEEL SORRY RIGHT.....NOW THAT EVERYONE IS ON THE I HATE GB BAND WAGON... I DONT WANNA BE ON IT.....I HAVE BIGGER ISSUES THAN THAT LIL HITLER.....I JUST MAKES ME SAD THE WORLD COULDN'T WAKE UP IN TIME, BECAUSE, AS THE SAYING GOES......WHAT WE DO NOT LEARN FROM OUR HISTORY, WE ARE DOOMED TO REPEAT...................YES?........................SORRY BABIES.......BRACE YOURSELVES....IT IS FAR FROM OVER....AND WE WILL HAVE PEACE..................BUT THE COST WILL BE GREAT........................THE WORLD WILL NEVER BE THE SAME........IT WILL BE BETTER.....SO MUCH BETTER......KINDA LIKE DESTROYING AN OLD DILAPIDATED BUILDING, AND THEN CARRYING ALL THE OLD STUFF AWAY....CLEARING THE GROUNDS.....AND BUILDING A BETTER STRONGER STRUCTURE.....THIS IS WHAT IS HAPPENING.................DONT BE SCARED..................NO MATTER WHAT .....................YOU ARE INFINITE......AND YOU WILL FEEL THE LOVE AND THE LIGHT OF THE AQUARIAN AGE................THE AGE OF BROTHER HOOD AND LIGHT.....................I LUV U ALL...................I WILL BE BACK SOON!!!!...................SEND ME EMAILS, AND LETTERS, I LOVE TO HEAR FROM YOU ALL!!! XOXOXO.................ME
SIRI D.
FEBRUARY 11TH, 2006
HI EVERYONE!!! SORRY IT'S BEEN SO LONG....WE'VE BEEN BUSY HONEYBEE'S....OH YES AS I HAVE READ OVER THIS JOURNAL I SEE SO MANY THINGS ARE COMING TO PASS....WHAT HAPPENED TO WINTER THIS YEAR? IT'S ALREADY SPRING AT LEAST WHERE I LIVE....AMONGST THE JOSHUA, WE HARDLY SAW A WINTER....GLOBAL WARMING IS JUST A MYTH...HUH??? NOPE SORRY, ITS REAL, AND IT'S GOING TO COLLAPSE SOCIETY AS WE KNOW IT THAT'S OKAY...DUBAI IS LOOKING BETTER AND BETTER EVERYDAY....AND IT'S FUNNY HOW THIS ISLAND IS ALL MANMADE FROM THE OIL PEOPLE THEMSELVES....ALL THE ISLANDS ARE MADE FROM RECYCLED MATERIALS, THE WHOLE MAN MADE ISLAND IS ECO-FRIENDLY....ELECTRIC WAVE RUNNERS.....IT'S BUILT TO BE IN ACCORDANCE WITH NATURE, WITHOUT DAMAGING OUR NATURAL ECO SYSTEM...AND GET THIS....THE ISLANDS GO FROM 10 MILL - 100- MILL...AND U KNOW WHAT...YOU CAN MOVE THEM!!! HEHEHEHEH....RIGHT NOW THEY ARE IN THE FORMATION OF A BIG POT LEAF....HEHEH.....BUT THEY CAN ACTUALLY BE MOVED...IT'S FUNNY THOUGH, ALL THE OIL MONEY CREATING AN ENVIRONMENTAL VALHALLA, IT'S IRONIC..DON'T CHA THINK? A LITTLE TOO IRONIC....YEAH I REALLY DO THINK....SO ANY WAY, THEY WANT TO START HYBRID-ING THEIR CULTURAL MUSIC WITH WESTERN MUSIC, ALSO BRINGING IN WESTERN ACTS TO THE CASINOS...AND SO FORTH AND SUCH....I FOR ONE AM DOWN WITH THIS...PEACE CAN BE ACHIEVED...EVEN SONICALLY! WE ARE LOOKING FORWARD TO WORKING WITH ARTIST FROM ALL OVER THE WORLD WITH DIFFERENT MUSICAL STYLES, AND BLENDING OUR SOUND TOGETHER...VERY EXCITING.....LET IT BRING UNDERSTANDING...LET IT BRING PEACE.....WELL...THE MASTERING HAS BEEN DONE...AND THE ARTWORK HAS HAD IT'S FINAL OKAYS....AND IT'S COMING OUT MARCH 21ST 2006...LOOK FOR IT IN STORES AND ON LEGIT DOWN LOAD STATIONS EVERYWHERE....BUT THE FUNNY THING IS THIS....AS SIRIUS WORKS THROUGH ALL THE MARKETING DECISIONS, I CAME UP WITH ONE IDEA, AND PLEASE DON'T GET ME WRONG ON THIS...BUT, I HAVE DECIDED OUR MUSIC IS MUCH MORE NEEDED OUTSIDE OF AMERICA, THE LAND OF AMERICAN IDOL, WHERE THE ART FORM, HAS BEEN LOST....THIS IS NOT THE SINGING BUSINESS, IT IS THE MUSIC BUSINESS, AND WITH THE RADIO BEING DOMINATED BY MEDIOCRE PAYOLA DRIVEN FORMAT, AMERICA'S EARS HAVE BECOME NUMB....NUMB TO THE BEAUTY OF SONIC VIBRATIONS AND WHAT IT TRULY MEANS, IF YOU TRULY HAVE THE EARS TO HEAR, THAN YOU WILL UNDERSTAND THAT EVERY NOTE EVERY BREATH EVERY HIDDEN MESSAGE IN THIS CD IS PURPOSEFUL AND WITH INTENT.....MANY OF YOU WILL NOT HEAR....MANY OF YOU WILL.....IT IS THE SOULS JOURNEY....NOT A MUSICAL PIECE FOR VANITY AND FAME...LIKE TUPAC...FUCK THE FAME.....OUR SERVICE IS SONIC VIBRATION, AND THE RAISING OF THE SURFACE FREQUENCY...WE DO THIS NO MATTER WHAT....NO MONEY? NO FAME? DOESN'T MATTER...IT'S NOT WHY WE DO IT.....THIS IS WHY I CONSIDER US THE UN-AMERICAN AMERICAN BAND, WE DO OUR DUTY, AND BECAUSE WE DO NOT COMPETE FOR GLORY, OR MONEY, WE ARE VIEWED BY WESTERNERS AS DIFFERENT, UNWORTHY OF THEIR CONSUMPTION, BECAUSE WE DO NOT GROVEL OR BEG FOR YOU ATTENTION...WE DO WHAT WE DO BE THERE ONE....OR BE THERE ONE MILLION....AGAIN IT IS OUR SERVICE. SO.....THIS IS WHY WE MADE THE DECISION TO BRING OUR BAND AT LEAST AT FIRST OUT OF THE COUNTRY AND INTO THE WORLD...AND YES, IT MIGHT BE DANGEROUS, BUT AGAIN WE ARE SERVANTS, OUR LIVES ARE NOT IMPORTANT...THE MESSAGE OF PEACE IS, HEAVEN ON EARTH....IF WE MUST BE THE SACRIFICIAL LAMBS WE ARE NOT AFRAID....LOVE IS THE MOST POWERFUL FORCE ON EARTH.....WE ARE PROTECTED....WE HAVE COME TOO FAR TO SHRINK BACK NOW....NO WAR NO HATE.....WE WROTE THESE WORDS THREE YEARS AGO....I STAND BEHIND EVERY BREATH AND EVERY WORD ON THIS PROJECT.....THOUGH....WE ARE HALFWAY THROUGH OUR SECOND PROJECT...AND MAN IS IT ROCKIN....THIS ONE IS A BIT HARDER EDGED...BUT WE HAVE GROWN...AND THIS ONE REFLECTS THAT GROWTH...WE INCORPORATE THESE NEW SONGS IN OUR LIVE SHOW....YOU REALLY SHOULD TRY TO MAKE ONE WHILE WE ARE STILL IN THE STATES....TRUST WHEN I SAY, WE WONT BE IN THE STATES LONG....SO ON THE 19TH OF THIS MONTH WE ARE DOING MARYLAND STATE...RADIO THIRD RAIL, 5PM ON THE WEST COAST, 8PM EAST...IT'S A LIVE BROADCAST AS WELL AS A HALF HOUR INTERVIEW AFTER THE SHOW....AFTER THAT SHOW WE ARE NOT LOOKING TO BOOK TOO MANY MORE STATES SHOW, EVEN THOUGH COLLEGE RADIO HAS PICKED UP THE RECORD....I THINK WE'LL JUST LET IT MARINATE IN THE STATES FOR A WHILE....THEN COME BACK AND DO IT RIGHT AT THE STAPLES CENTER....SOUNDS GOOD TO ME.....AND IN THE MEANTIME, THERE WILL ALWAYS BE THAT ASHLEY SIMPSON CONCERT, OR THAT STONES CONCERT, OR JUSTIN, OR WHOEVER THE NUMB MASSES FOLLOW...DOESN'T MATTER....YOU WILL WAKE UP ... OR YOU WILL GO BACK TO THE SOURCE....PERIOD.....IF YOU ASK US TO PLAY....YES WE WILL....BUT DO NOT JUDGE OUR TALENT BECAUSE WE ARE NOT TALENT, WE ARE CHANNELERS OF SONIC VIBRATIONS, NOT HERE FOR YOUR APPROVAL, FOR WE HAVE APPROVED OURSELVES, RECEIVE, OPEN UR HEARTS, RECEIVE, YOU WILL FEEL SO MUCH BETTER, WE PROMISE....PLEASE DON'T GET ALL EXCITED WHEN IT BECOMES POPULAR....THAT WOULD BE A LET DOWN....BE A VISIONARY, A TRUE CONNOISSEUR OF SOMETHING RARE AND DIFFERENT AND PRECIOUS...UNLIKE ANYTHING BEFORE, OR EVER WILL BE AGAIN, I DO NOT SAY THIS IN VANITY, ONLY IN TRUTH, FOR IF I COULD NOT RECOGNIZE, THAN HOW COULD THIS BE??.....AND THIS GOES THE SAME FOR EVERYTHING, WHY WAIT FOR IT TO BE POPULAR BEFORE YOU EMBRACE IT? ARE U A TREND...OR A TRENDY....USUALLY BY THE TIME THINGS BECOME TRENDY....I DISCARD THEM....LIKE MY UGGS IN OUR BAND PHOTOS....THOSE ARE BEACH AND SNOW SHOES....IF YOU LOOK AT THEM, THEY ARE WORN AND SUPER COMFY....BUT I GOT THEM IN '96' LONG BEFORE THEY WERE TRENDY, AND THAT WAS WHAT THEY CALLED THEM UGGS...CUZ THEY WERE THOUGHT TO BE UGLY.....BUT I JUST LOVED THEM THEN, AND WELL, YOU KNOW....I WENT TO THE BIG FIVE TO PICK UP ANOTHER PAIR A COUPLE OF YEARS BACK CUZ MINE WERE GETTING WORN, AND WHAT DO YOU KNOW??? THE UGLY SHOES WERE NOW TRENDY...NOT ONLY THAT BUT 100 PERCENT MARK UP, AND ON BACK ORDER....????!!!!!...WTF...SO AS U CAN SEE, I AM WEARING MY GOOD OL COMFY ONES ON THE BEACH...THAT IS WHAT THEY ARE FOR PEEPS....NOT A HOLLYWOOD STATEMENT...BLECKKKK......AND FYI.....EVERYTHING IN THAT PIC IS EITHER FROM A THRIFT STORE OR FROM A HIGH SCHOOL RIPPED UP PAIR OF JEANS...AKA MY SKIRT...HEHEHE....SO WHAT? I WOULD RATHER SPEND MY MONEY ON AN ISLAND IN DUBAI....OR A COMPOUND IN NEW MEXICO WITH MY OWN WATER SOURCE AND WINDMILLS...AND HUGE GARDENS FOR MY BABIES TO RUN THROUGH....AND NO MEAT...BUT LOTS AND LOTS OF ANIMALS JUST RUNNING AROUND IN PEACE AND LOVE....I WONT DIVULGE TOO MUCH ABOUT MY COMPOUND I AM BUILDING....ONLY IF UR IN...R.. U.. IN???? IF SOME DESIGNER REALLY WANTS ME TO ROCK SOMETHING OF THEIRS...WELL, THEY'LL HAVE TO GIVE IT TO ME, AND THIS STILL WONT GUARANTEE I WILL WEAR IT...I AM BUILT FOR COMFORT, AND HIGH ENERGY.....NOT STUFFY COMPLICATED WARDROBES, I LOOK BETTER NAKED ANY WAY....DON'T WE ALL???? CEPT...WELL....I'LL GET ARRESTED IF I GET NAKED ON STAGE, AND BESIDES THAT WOULD BE MISCONSTRUED ALSO, THEY WOULD JUST SAY...SEX SEX SEX...BLAH BLAH....BUT I SAY IF I DRIVE MY CAR NAKED, AM I HAVING SEX WITH IT?.....WESTERNERS ARE SO UP TIGHT....I EVEN GET LITTLE HATE FULL MESSAGES ABOUT WEARING A BIKINI TOP IN OUR PICS...............DUH....WE ARE ON THE BEACH???? HELLO....WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO WEAR? A TURTLE NECK...SO YOU DON'T FEEL UNCOMFORTABLE???!!!! SORRY UPTIGHT ANAL RETENTIVES....YOU ARE THE FREAKS....NEWS FLASH.......I WAS BORN NAKED............AND IF IT AINT BROKE...WELL U KNOW THE REST.....CALIFORNIA BORN...CALIFORNIA BRED....BORN ON VENICE BEACH DEAL WITH IT GINA'S........MY FAMILY, MY DOGS, AND FRIENDS ACCEPT ME FOR ME....AND THAT'S ALL ANYONE CAN HOPE FOR....I DON'T JUDGE PEOPLE WHO DRESS ALL TRENDY...THEY NEED THAT SOCIETAL ACCEPTANCE...AND THAT IS UNDERSTANDABLE....SO DON'T JUDGE ME...I AM REAL....DEAL.......IF YOU HAVE EVER BEEN A FRONT PERSON IN A BAND...AND HAVE THOSE HOT LIGHTS BEAMING DOWN ON YOU....DID U EVER WONDER WHY MUSICIANS GET ELECTROCUTED ALL THE TIME??? BECAUSE WE STAND IN PUDDLES OF OUR OWN SWEAT, AND IT'S OKAY FOR MEN TO BARE THEIR CHESTS...BUT WOMEN.....NOPE....AND TO BE PERFECTLY HONEST....I WOULD NOT WANT TO DISTRACT THE TRUTH OF WHY WE ARE....SO LET ME WEAR A BIKINI TOP...OKAY???? I PROMISE...I AM NOT TRYING TO BE SEXY.....I PROMISE I PROMISE....SEXY IS AS SEXY DOES, IT IS ALSO A PERCEPTION, NOT EVERY ONE HAS THE SAME TASTES...WE ALL HAVE OUR OWN BUTTONS OF SEXINESS....ONE PERSONS SEX IS ANOTHER PERSONS WASH CLOTH....YOU KNOW WHAT I AM SAYING EYE OF THE BEHOLDER....AND IN THIS AREA...I WILL NEVER COMPROMISE...NEVER.....I RESPOND TO WHAT I RESPOND TO, AND ON THIS PLANET, AT THIS TIME IN HISTORY, THERE IS ANOTHER BEING...AND THEY GIVE ME AS MUCH ATTENTION AS GEORGE BUSH GIVES TO GLOBAL WARMING....AND THIS MEANS LITTLE....WHY DO I LOVE THIS PERSON? BECAUSE MY SOUL DOES...BECAUSE MY HEART DOES...BECAUSE MY BODY DOES.....AND WITH ATTENTION OR NOT IT DOES NOT CHANGE ME.....IT DOESN'T MATTER ANYMORE...ALL THAT MATTERS IS THAT IT FEELS GOOD TO FEEL SO MUCH...AND NOT NEED, OR WANT, OR REACH....IT JUST IS WHAT IT IS....AND THAT IS ENOUGH FOR ME. .....BESIDES ,AM I NOT A BUSY GIRL....AND GETTING BUSIER ALL THE TIME....HE WOULD HAVE TO COME ON THE ROAD WITH ME.....AND LET ME CLING TO HIM IN THIS WEARY WONDERFUL WORLD.....HE MIGHT NOT LIKE THAT...AND THAT IS MY LOVEY DOVEY NATURE....I AM AN ALL OR NOTHING KIND OF GIRL......NOTHING SUPERFICIAL ABOUT THIS GIRL....RATHER NOT HAVE IT IF IT ISN'T REAL....PERIOD . BUT ENOUGH OF THAT .... I MEDITATE....AND THIS KEEPS ME DESIRE LESS....I DESIRE TO BE DESIRE LESS....THIS IS MY PATH...MY PURPOSE...SO EVEN IN A RELATIONSHIP...I WOULD DESIRE TO NOT DESIRE....AND WORK AT IT EVERYDAY......MY ATTENTION IS FOCUSED ON THE SUPREME BEING, AND BEING IN SERVICE TO THIS.....LOVE IS BEAUTIFUL.....BUT I MUST BE ABLE TO SOAR SPIRITUALLY IN A CONJUGAL RELATION....OR I CANNOT ENTANGLE. .....FOR NOW....I AM SATISFIED....I DO HAVE SATISFACTION....IN OUR WORK, IN OUR SERVICE....IN TRYING TO SAVE THE PLANET, IS THIS NOT ENOUGH OF A DUTY.....JUST TO BE AWAKE AND UNCOMFORTABLE WITH THE STATUS QUO IS SAYING A LOT........AND THEN WAKING UP AND DOING SOMETHING ABOUT IT AND NOT COMPLAINING, BUT REALLY DOING....THIS IS WHAT MATTERS....THIS IS WHAT COUNTS.....DAMN....I AM TALKING A LOT TONIGHT......ON A SATURDAY NIGHT.... HEHEHE WATCHING MICHAEL ON SOUTH PARK.....DON'T GET IT TWISTED I LOVE MICHAEL...HE'S MY BRO...HE IS A BEAUTIFUL SOUL....SO MISUNDERSTOOD....AND AS THEY SAY.....IF THEY HAIL U THEY WILL NAIL U...IT'S JUST PART OF THE GAME.....JUST ASK JESUS....U DID IT TO HIM TOO!!!! ALRIGHT.....MY DARLINGS.....ENOUGH FOR NOW..............................XOXOX ME SIRI DYAL
DECEMBER 3RD, 2005
THIS YEAR, YOU WON'T FIND ME AT HOLLYWOOD PARTIES, SIPPING A DRINK BY THE FIRE, MY CALLING IS YELLING AND SCREAMING...SHE WANTS FOR THE END OF THIS LIE, I USED TO WONDER, I DON'T WONDER NO MORE, I USED TO DESIRE, DON'T DESIRE NO MORE....I NOW KNOW, I KNOW NOTHING AT ALL, EXPERIENCE SHE TELLS ME, FLOW WITH KRSNA LOKA....I NEVER HEARD A FUNKY POLKA, CUZ IT IS WHAT IT IS, AND IF LIFE B THE BIZ, THAN PLAYIN THIS GAME, IS SORT OF INSANE, SO SINCE I AM SO LUCID, NOT GONNA B STUPID, TAKE IT ALL FOR GRANTED, WISH FOR WHAT WAS HANDED, TO US LIKE A GIFT, BUT THE DARKNESS MADE A RIFT, A VEIL OF ILLUSION, BETWEEN CONTROLLED AND CONFUSION, PROSPERING BY THIS ILLUSION, SOME, BUT THEY WERE NOT DUMB, ONLY NUMB, AND ONLY SOME. ..... TAKE CARE OF WHAT WE RECEIVE WITH SUCH EASE, TAKE CARE THAT WHAT YOU SAY YOU BELIEVE.....FORE WORDS ARE NOT METAL, MORE PRECIOUS THEY ARE, THEY CARRY THE LANGUAGE, WE TOOK FROM OUR STAR ....THIS PLANET CREATED BY JUST ONE PHRASE, UTTERED BY UNKNOWN ETERNAL, OUR HEARTS ARE HIS GAZE, AND EVERYTHING IS ALIVE, EVEN THE THINGS WE EAT EVERYDAY......THE SNAKE HAS SWALLOWED IT'S TAIL...............UNTIL THAT DAY, OR DAYS, OR EON, OR AGE....EXPERIENCE, IS ORGANIZED, DEAL......IF YOU DISAGREE, PROVE IT TO BE UNTRUE...EVEN A CAR CRASH IS INSURED..........IN MOST CASES THIS IS......
YOU WON'T FIND ME AT THE TRENDY PARTY'S THERE'S TOO MUCH TO BE DONE....I AM SIKHING, THE LUMINARIES, IN UNDERGROUND DUNGEONS....IT'S TIME FOR THEM TO SURFACE, TO ADD THEIR GLOW TO THIS DISMAL STATUS QUO....
U WON'T FIND ME ON THE COVER OF A MAGAZINE, I AM NOT AN ILLUSION, I AM THE REAL THING.
DO YOU WANT TO KNOW, WHERE I MIGHT BE?......SITTING BENEATH THE BODHI TREE, FACING MY DEMONS, BEING MY TRUTH, GLOWING IN ETERNITY, ALWAYS WAS, AND ALWAYS WILL BE, THE JOURNEY NEVER ENDS, TIME IS MARKED BY TRENDS, SOON TO BE OVER, THE TIME OF GLOBAL MISERY, POVERTY, IGNORANCE, VIOLENCE, IMBALANCE, ....... TO ALL THOSE WHO DWELL IN GREED, TAKE HEED, THIS IS YOUR WARNING, AND IT'S TIME TO CONCEDE, CONCEDE TO YOUR DOINGS, OF MURDER, AND GREED, MOTIVATED BY YOUR EGO TO FEED AND TO FEED, ON THE BLOOD OF THE LAMB, WE'VE TAKEN THE SACRIFICE DOWN, ONLY TO TURN AROUND, FIRST LOOK AT THE GROUND, WE WONT MAKE A SOUND, THEN, IN A DEAFENING RESOUND, WE INTEND TO BRING YOU DOWN,......JUST LIKE THE PYRAMID....DID YOU THINK WE FORGOT OUR RECIPE, WE WERE JUST WATCHING AND WAITING FOR THE MOST PREGNANT MOMENT, TO GIVE BIRTH TO THE NEW PLANET EARTH. I AM FREE......FOREVER.......................AND SO ARE YOU....IF YOU WANT TO BE TOO!!!!! SD
NOVEMBER 29TH, 2005
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BROTHER!!!! GREG KALEEM...
I WILL ADMIT, THIS IS THE BUSY TIME OF YEAR FOR ME...AND THE BAND, AND I SUPPOSE, A LOT OF FOLKS...SO IF I AM NOT ADDING TOO MUCH TO THE JOURNAL, YOU MUST FORGIVE ME, AND KNOW THAT THERE WILL BE ALL SORTS OF JUICY THINGS TO SAY WHEN I HAVE TIME TO WRITE...
SINCE WRITING IS SOMETHING I MUST DO, DON'T EVER BE THINK I WILL STOP...ONLY IF I HAVE TO...AND THAT WOULD BE A HARD TASK FOR SOMEONE TO PUT UPON ME...BECAUSE KALEEM ...IT MEANS THE COMMUNICATOR. AND I MUST SAY, I AM NOT ONE FOR COVERT CONVERSATION, BECAUSE IT CARRIES A VEIL EASILY SEEN THROUGH, ...AND THIS IS MOST IRRITATING TO THE TACTILE TAURUS....JUST BE REAL...WE SEE IT ANYWAY, WE SEE THE REALNESS, NO NEED TO HIDE, IT DOES NOT WORK, SO IF THE FAKENESS IS SEEN THEN IT IS FAKENESS...NO MATTER WHO, WHAT, OR WHERE.
ALL FOR NOW, I AM OFF TO REHEARSALS, THEN SOME SHOPPING......SOME DECORATING.....SOME CHILLING...SOME DREAMING, SCHEMING, AND DREAMING........................................PEACE................................. SIRI DI I GUESS I AM GETTIN IN THE MOOD AGAIN.
NOVEMBER 27TH, 2005
THE HOLIDAY IS ALREADY UPON US...IT FEELS A LITTLE RUSHED THIS YEAR, ALREADY IT FEELS VERY MUCH ABOUT MATERIAL, A LITTLE SALVE TO PUT ON THE SCRAPES AND THE BRUISES, OUR TRUE TREASURE IS WITHIN VAST VAST AND UNKNOWN. I MIGHT BE A MINIMALIST...I DONT REALLY LIKE COLLECTING THINGS, THEY ONLY CLUTTER UP, AND AT LONG LAST WIND UP BEING DONATED TO THE GOODWILL....NOW THIS IS NOT TO SAY I DONT LOVE THE HOLIDAY!!! I LOVE THE HOLIDAY...I LOVE TO TRAVEL, AND SPA, RELAX, AND FORGET ABOUT THE DAY TO DAY LIFE ON THIS BLUE MARBLE....IT ALSO SEEMS PEOPLE ARE AT LEAST TRYING TO BE A LITTLE HAPPY....FOR THE BABIES....IT IS AN AQUARIAN DREAM OF ETERNAL LOVE AND HARMONY...AND WE AS CHILDREN ARE WILLING TO GO DOWN THAT PATH....IT WAS SUCH A MAGICAL TIME FOR ME WHEN I WAS A LITTLE GIRL
NOVEMBER 12, 2005
TODAY....WAS AN EXCELLENT DAY!..............THE 11TH ..THAT IS....IT'S EARLY SATURDAY MORN....THERE IS AN UNUSUAL GLOW TO THE NIGHT SKY TONIGHT...THE STARS ARE UNUSUALLY BRIGHT....TODAY, WHEN I WAS RUNNING, THREE CROWS FLEW OVER MY HEAD...SO CLOSE THAT I COULD HERE THE WIND IN THEIR WINGS, IT ALMOST BRUSHED MY HEAD...THESE CROWS KNOW ME....AND THEY ARE MY FRIENDS...TODAY FOR SOME REASON THEY CAME UNUSUALLY CLOSE TO ME....IT WAS AMAZING....SOMETHING VERY SPECIAL IS HAPPENING....MAYBE FOR ME, MAYBE FOR YOU, MAYBE FOR THE WHOLE PLANET!!!.......IF YOU KNOW ME...THAN U KNOW THAT THIS IS A VERY VERY SPECIAL DAY, AND THOUGH I AM BORN ON MAY 12TH, THE 11 MARKS ME...MY WHOLE LIFE...11 11...11 11....11 11.....ITS REALLY JUST FOUR...THOUGH 11 A MASTER NUMBER CANNOT BE REDUCED...ONLY ADDED....I HAVE THIS FEELING IN MY BELLY...I REALLY CANT EXPLAIN IT...JUST REMEMBER I SAID THIS....AND SO WILL I.....THINGS ARE CHANGING....I AM GOING WITH IT....I HAVE NO CHOICE....I AM BOUND BY THE 12....SURRENDER.....I MUST FLOW....IF I RESIST...I PERISH.........SO FLOW WITH ME, NO ONE SAID I HAD TO GO ALONE....DID THEY?.....MY FAM IS HERE.....I CAN STILL HERE THERE VOICES WHEN I DRIFT...THEY CALL ME BACK TO STAY ANOTHER DAY, I AM GRATEFUL OF THEIR LOVE FOR ME, ALL MY TRUEST FRIENDS, I AM GRATEFUL FOR THEM...I AM GRATEFUL, THAT I AM UNDERSTOOD...EVEN IF JUST A LITTLE....THAT IS WONDERFUL....BUT BELIEVE, I UNDERSTAND, IT'S NOT EASY LIVING IN A WORLD HYPNOTIZED, AND BEING LUCID......IT MAKES FOR A LIFE ON ACID, WITHOUT THE BLOTTER TAB. ...IN CASE U DIDN'T GET IT........THINGS ARE SHIFTY...VERY SHIFTY....LIKE I CAN FEEL THE TECTONICS UNDER MY FEET.......MAYBE THEY WANT TO BE PUT BACK TOGETHER...LIKE ALL THE TWIN SOULS.....BELIEVE IT OR NOT.....TRUE DOES NOT NEED QUALIFICATION...IT SIMPLY IS. JUST LIKE THE ICECAPS IN THE ANTARCTICA, THEY JUST SPLIT INTO THREE PIECES THE SIZE OF MAUI...NOW MAUI IS A SMALL ISLAND....BUT THREE PIECES OF A ICECAP....NOW MELTING, CRACKING AND RAISING THE SURFACE LEVEL OF WATER ON THE PLANET.....DAMN THAT GLOBAL WARMING.....DO NOT BE SO ARROGANT AS TO BELIEVE, THAT WE WILL BLOW OURSELVES UP.....NO, THE SPECIES WILL BE ERADICATED BEFORE THE EARTH IS OVER DAMAGED.....WE WILL CHANGE, AS A PEOPLE, WE MUST RAISE OUR AWARENESS, OUR GLOBAL AWARENESS.....THE EARTH IS ALREADY RECOILING....SHE WILL GET RID OF US PEOPLE....UNLESS WE WAKE UP!!....
ON THAT NOTE....ISN'T IT TIME FOR A GOOD OL FASHIONED IMPEACHMENT? WE HAVEN'T HAD ONE IN SO LONG....AND U KNOW WE AMERICANS LOVE OUR REALITY TV...BUT SIRIUSLY, LEMME PUT SOMETHING OUT THERE FOR A MOMENT....NOW WITH ALL THE INTRIGUE IN THE WHITE HOUSE THESE DAYS, LETS JUST SAY, IT'S A RIPE IDEA...I BELIEVE EVEN MISTER BLAIR IS LOSING HIS GRIP ON HIS FEEBLE POWER...BUT I FEEL BUSH WILL BE IMPEACHED FOR COMPLETELY DIFFERENT REASONS...NOT THE ONES HE SHOULD BE.....LEMME BREAK IT DOWN SD STYLE.......FIRST OF ALL...BUSH HAS LOST HIS GRIP, AND IS ABOUT TO BE EXPOSED FOR THE CROOK HE IS, NOT ALL THE EXPOSURE...LIKE WHEN U SEE THE TIP OF AN ICEBERG....THEY WILL NEVER LET THE REAL TRUTH OUT OF HOW CORRUPT BUSH GOVERNMENT IS. EVEN THE CONSERVATIVES IN WASHINGTON KNOW, THAT SOMEONE MUST SWING FOR ALL THE CHAOS IN THE WORLD THIS ILLEGAL WAR HAS CREATED....FIRST BUSH WENT AGAINST THE UNITED NATIONS ....WHICH WAS PUT IN PLACE FOR SUCH MATTERS....SO NOW THE WORLD KNOWS WHY WE WENT THERE, AND THE SHIT IS DEEP, WE KNOW THIS, COME ON....WE JUST GET UNCOMFORTABLE WHEN WE THINK OF HOW EVIL OUR GOVERNMENT IS...ITS CALLED THE BURDEN OF KNOWLEDGE, DID ANYONE THINK BUSH WENT THERE FOR LEGIT REASONS? COME ON...HE JUST FINISHED WHAT DADDY COULDN'T DO... HE HAD A PERSONAL AGENDA...THIS IS AMERICA JACK....RUN BY THE PEOPLE...FOR THE PEOPLE BY THE PEOPLE......I DO NOT PLEDGE ALLEGIANCE TO ANY FUCKIN FLAG OF ANY COUNTRY....ONE PLANET UNDER GOD.....SO ANY WAY......IT IS PAINFULLY OBVIOUS THAT, THE SNAFUS WILL BE CATCHING UP VERY SOON TO THE BIG MACARONI...AFTER ALL, WHERE DOES THE BUCK STOP...HUH? MR. PREZY WEZZY? SO AS IS THE AMERICAN WAY....WE WANT SOME BLOOD...AND BLOOD WE SHALL HAVE.....YES BUSH WILL BE IMPEACHED, HE WILL BE THE SCAPEGOAT, EVEN THOUGH HE IS JUST A PUPPET AND A WALK-IN...HE WILL BE OUR SACRIFICIAL LAMB...SO WE CAN POINT OUR FINGERS AT HIM, AS WE LOOK IN TO THE TENS OF THOUSAND OF LIVES WE SACRIFICED FOR OIL, AND GREED, YES WE WILL LOOK THEM IN THE EYE...AND SAY AMERICA IS STILL GREAT...SEE WE GOT RID OF OUR OWN DICTATOR....WE DIDN'T KNOW....HE TOLD US...WE BELIEVE HIM...PLEASE FORGIVE US....HERE IS YOUR CRIMINAL...WE ARE GONNA BBQ HIM ON THE CHANNEL 7 NEWS VIA SATELLITE FOR ALL TO WITNESS.....AND THE WORLD WILL SAY.....OH YES..AMERICA IS A GREAT COUNTRY....THEY GOVERN THEMSELVES...THE PEOPLE SPOKE AND HE IS GONE......GONE TO HIS RANCH...WITH HIS OIL, AND HIS DOGS, AND BOOZE...BECAUSE HE HAS BEEN HUMILIATED....SO SAD...POOR THING.......BECAUSE, IT WONT BE FAIR. AGAIN, THE CORPORATIONS WHO ARE TRULY RESPONSIBLE FOR THIS WAR, THEY WILL WALK FREE, THROWING ROCKS AT THE FALLEN, AND EMBRACING THE NEW LEADER. THAT IS THE POLITICS OF THIS PLANET....DAMAGE CONTROL ON A GLOBAL LEVEL...... AFTER THEY ALL GOT WHAT THEY WANTED...BILLIONS AND BILLIONS...DON'T NEED YA ANYMORE, AND IT'S GETTING MESSY... TIME ... TO LIGHTEN THE LOAD....SWITCH SIDES....WATCH....JUST WAIT.....YOU WILL SEE THE WORDS THAT COME FROM HIS LIPS...ET TU...CONDOLEEZZA.....AH MY LOVES, WE HAVE SEEN THIS CHARADE BEFORE....DO WE NOT RECOGNIZE?...............TIME TO BREAK THE CYCLE.... I FOR ONE DO NOT WANT BLOOD.....I WANT LIFE...CHANGE......GROWTH......FORGIVENESS, UNDERSTANDING......FOR US TO LEARN FROM THIS....OR SUFFER SUCH GREAT CONSEQUENCE....I CANNOT SPEAK OF THIS ANYMORE, WHEN I PULL MYSELF INTO THIS MIND FRAME, I BRING MYSELF INTO A VERY DENSE DARK CONSCIENCE....IT IS NOT WHERE I DWELL.....BUT I SEE BOTH SIDES....THE DARK AND LIGHT...AND KNOW THEY CANNOT LIVE WITHOUT EACH OTHER...EACH DEPENDS ON THE OTHER FOR ITS EXISTENCE...WEIRD HUH? YES...BUT TRUE...WITH OUT THE NIGHT...WE COULD NOT HAVE THE STARS...WITH OUT THE SUN....WE WOULD HAVE NOTHING......
LET ME PEEL BACK THE LAYERS OF ALL THIS ILLUSION, AND DWELL IN THE OCEAN OF LOVE, WHERE I AM WITH THE WHALES, AND THE DOLPHINS...AND THE FISHIES...THE ATLANTIANS......THE SIRIANS.....AHHH..YES SURROUND ME IN MUSIC, AND LOVE, BUTTERFLIES, AND MARSHMALLOW PIES.....SURROUND ME WITH FRIENDS WHOSE LOVE WILL NEVER END....ALWAYS GROWING...ALWAYS GLOWING. NEVER KNOWING....TRUSTING...SHOWING, THAT WE DESERVE TO BE CONSCIOUS OF OUR DIVINITY. HAPPY BIRTHDAY...SHNOOKY WOOKY........ ME SIRI D
NOVEMBER 9TH, 2005
THERE IS SO MUCH MORE GOING ON THAN WHAT WE CAN PERCEIVE WITH OUR PRIMITIVE SENSES, DID U VOTE TODAY? HMMM...I REALLY WONDER HOW IT WILL COME OUT....FEELS LIKE TO ME, NOT A LOT OF THE INITIATIVES WILL PASS....THEY ARE PRETTY LAME.....ON TO MORE INTERESTING THINGS...WELL, AT LEAST TO ME.....AND IT'S MY JOURNAL SO YEAH...A REALLY HIGH OFFICIAL HEAD IS ABOUT TO ROLL.....THIS WILL START THE DOMINO EFFECT...BUT, BE CAREFUL, NOT TO GLOAT, FOR IT CAN VERY PROBABLY BE A DIVERSION....I FEEL AS IF THIS PRESENT, IS THE PAST, AND THAT CERTAIN PEOPLE ARE HERE TO REVERSE SOMETHING, SOMETHING THAT HAPPENED IN THE PAST THAT CHANGED THE FUTURE, AND IT'S BEING FIXED IN THIS PRESENT MOMENT, THOUGH IT HAS ALREADY HAPPENED, IT IS BEING UNHAPPENED. NO I DID NOT GET THIS FROM A SCI FI MOVIE, IT IS AN IMPRESSION THAT IS BURNED IN MY BRAIN FOR SOMETIME, IT IS ONLY NOW THAT I CAN UNDERSTAND IT, BEFORE WHEN I COULD SEE THRU THE VEIL IT WAS STILL A LITTLE SHAKY, EVERYTHING WOULD LOOK OLD FASHIONED, AND FOR A SPLIT SECOND, I WOULD FEEL DISORIENTED, OUT OF PLACE, THEN IT WOULD QUICKLY PASS, AND I'D SOON FORGET ABOUT IT, BUT NOW, IT'S DIFFERENT, IT HAS BECOME SLOW MOTION....ALMOST MATRIXY..YOU KNOW WHEN IT ALL GOES SLOW....IN AND OUT....NOW I'M MORE IN THAN OUT....IT JUST WORKED OUT THAT WAY. MAYBE THIS IS ALL TO ACCESS THAT AKASHIC RECORD...TO BRING YOU BACK....OR FORWARD.....THE HEART OF THE SUN.
NO ONE ASKED YOU TO GO OUT OF YOUR WAY....BUT LETS FACE IT...IT IS YOUR STYLE, WHEN U CHOOSE TO UNLEASH IT. WHY DO I SAY THIS? WELL, IF YOU HAVE TO ASK...U KNOW....AND YES, AREN'T WE ALL SO SOME TIMEY SOMETIMES? IT'S THE WILD ONES WHO WANT TO BE BROKEN....OR...INFUSED WITH ANOTHER COMPLETELY DIFFERENT ENERGY. I KNOW, I AM PROBABLY PERCEIVED AS A WILD ONE....BUT GOD MADE ME THIS WAY.....AND WE ALL JUST NEED A LITTLE TENDERNESS RIGHT? IT'S ALWAYS SO SWEET....I LOVE TO PLAY......BUT I AM A KITTEN....WITH A BALL OF YARN, AND DAMN IT...I WILL BE UNRAVELING THE WHOLE MYSTERY...THEN I WILL WONDER NO MORE, AND ENJOY ENDLESS STRING.....SO I GUESS...I WILL ALWAYS BE WONDERING....BECAUSE THERE IS NO END TO THE MYSTERY. TO THE VOID, TO THE UNKNOWN, IT'S ALL UNKNOWN TILL IT'S KNOWN, THEN THAT IS ONLY PERCEPTION AT BEST...IT SPIRALS, WE SPIRAL, WE NEVER STOP.....EVER.
MY TWIN IS FRUSTRATED, I KNOW, BECAUSE I AM TOO. BUT, THIS TOO SHALL END, THEN WE CAN BEGIN, AGAIN, AND AGAIN. BUT UNTIL THEN, MY FRIEND, BE TRUE, TO WHAT U KNOW DWELLS INSIDE OF YOU....WE'VE COME TOO FAR TO MISS THIS STAR.....IT WON'T BE EASY, BUT NOTHING WORTH IT EVER IS..........................UNTIL THAT SECOND...MOMENT......LIFETIME......CHANCE.......DAY .... NIGHT......THEN ......NOW..........................................XOXO ME...SIRI DI
NOVEMBER 1ST, 2005
LINEAR BACK AND FORTH, UP, AND DOWN, SIDEWAYS, AND BACK WAYS, ALL WAYS NOT EVEN KNOWN YET...SIMPLY....POSSIBILITIES. LATELY...THE AIR SEEMS SO DRY...NO MOISTURE.....WHICH FOR ALL THE RAIN SEEMS TO BE IN DIRECT CONTRADICTION....I WONDER IF ALL THE MOISTURE IS BEING SUMMONED FOR THE NEXT HURRICANE?..... PROBABLY....I SLEEP WITH A REALLY COOL HUMIDIFIER....WELL U KNOW WHAT I MEAN...I LOVE THE SMELL....ITS UNLIKE ANYTHING EVER DESCRIBED, AND I DOUBT EVERYONE HAS THE SAME EXPERIENCE....I CRAVE THE SCENT OF WATER....I LOVE WATER...VENUS IN CANCER, I GUESS....TANGENT OR WHAT?....THE CLIMATE IS CHANGING RAPIDLY...FOR SEVERAL REASONS. GLOBAL WARMING IS ONE REASON, EVOLUTION IS ANOTHER REASON, SUPERNATURAL FORCES ARE DOMINANT. LET ME EXPLAIN. THERE ARE MANY THEORIES AS TO HOW OLD EARTH ACTUALLY IS, SCIENTIST SAY 6 BILLION, SOME RELIGIONS SAY 6,000. THE GAP IS WIDE IN THIS KNOWLEDGE....THERE FOR NEVER HAS TRULY BEEN A FACT, BECAUSE IT IS UNPROVEN. IF THIS SIMPLE BASIC FACT CANNOT BE UNEQUIVOCALLY PROVEN, HOW OLD EARTH ACTUALLY IS, THEN HOW CAN WE SAY ONE THING IS HAPPENING AND IT WILL END ALL OF CIVILIZATION. IN NATURAL SELECTION, CERTAIN BREEDS, AND LIFE FORMS ARE SELECTIVELY MADE EXTINCT, ALL BASED IN CLIMATIC CHANGES....SO , AND HERE IS MY POINT....THAN, WHY COULD THIS NOT JUST NOT BE ANOTHER NATURAL EVENT IN RESPONSE TO THE BALANCE OF LIFE AND LIFE ACTIVITY OF THIS PARTICULAR TIME....KIND OF A DOMINO EFFECT...THE DINOSAURS WERE TAKING UP WAY TOO MUCH SPACE AND IN A SHORT AMOUNT OF TIME, THEY WOULD HAVE DIGESTED ALL OF THE EARTHS FOLIAGE, AND LEFT THE EARTH BARON, EARTH WAS NOT MADE FOR THIS....AND SOMETIMES, I WONDER WHY NO RELIGIONS MENTION THEM....ANY WAYS.....SO EARTH BEING IN A DEFENSIVE POSTURE TO HER SURVIVAL, SHE RIDS HERSELF OF THIS AGGRESSIVE PARASITE. SOME SAY METEORS, SOME SAY ICE AGE, STARVATION, WHO KNOWS ... ALL WE KNOW IS THAT THEY ARE NOW OIL...U KNOW THE LA BREA TAR PITS....SO THIS WAS THERE REVENGE....THEY WOULD RULE THE EARTH, NO MATTER WHAT FORM THEY TOOK. NO ONE SAID ALL SPIRITS ARE HUMAN. AND SO WITH MOUNTING TYRANNY, GREED, AND CORPORATE GOVERNMENT.....THEY ARE THE TRUE PUPPETEERS, THE GIANT DINOSAURS MOCK US WITH OUR VIOLENT ADDICTIONS, THEY TAUNT US WITH THEIR FALSE OPULENCE, FOR NO OTHER IS SO BRIGHT AS THE SUPREME BEING...MANY ARE HYPNOTIZED BY THE GLINT OF THE FOOLS GOLD..BUT NOT ALL, THERE ARE MANY AWAKE, AND MORE AND MORE AWAKENING EVERYDAY ....WAHE GURU!!!, AND SO NOW ONCE AGAIN, THE MOTHER MUST TAKE A POSTURE OF PROTECTION, TO BRING HERSELF IN TO BALANCE, AGAIN, SHE SAYS, THE DINOSAURS, THEY ARE AN AGGRESSIVE PARASITE....COMPLETELY DEPENDANT ON SOCIETY FOR ITS LIFE SOURCE....WOW....WHAT POWER WE HAVE PEOPLE!!!!.....SO WHO KNOWS WHAT IT WILL BE THIS TIME, MAYBE WE'LL TURN THE GUN ON OURSELVES, MAYBE A GREAT FLOOD, I HAVE SEEN THE WATER IN MY DREAMS COMING OUT OF WINDOWS....AND PURIFYING....THE LAND IS GETTING SMALLER....YES THE POLAR ICE CAPS ARE MELTING...MOSTLY MELTED......AHHH YES, NOW THIS EXPLAINS TO MYSELF, WHY MY SPIRITUAL FATHER SAID THAT MANY WOULD BE LEAVING THE PLANET IN THE NEXT 15 YEARS, A THIRD OF THE POPULATION, WHICH IS ROUGHLY ABOUT 2 BILLION, THAT'S A LOT OF SOULS, BUT THEN HE SAID, THERE WOULD BE OVERPOPULATION, AND I THOUGHT, HOW COULD THIS BE? MORE BIRTHS? IT HAS BEEN PERPLEXING ME FOR YEARS...I KNOW I KNOW...DON'T SAY IT......BUT NOW WITH THE GEOGRAPHICAL SHIFTS, AND OCCURRENCES, MORE WATER LESS LAND, IT ALL MAKES SENSE NEOW....HEHEHEHEH...ANY WAY BACK TO THE POINT...THE POPULATION WILL CONTINUE TO INCREASE WHILE LAND MASS WILL DECREASE, THIS WILL CAUSE A SHIFT IN POWER, THERE WILL BE NO MIDDLE CLASS, IT IS ALMOST A WORLD WITHIN ANOTHER WORLD, AS FOR ME, THE PIE CUTS IN TWO HALVES.....ONE....THE PEOPLE UNITE, AND CREATE A GREATER WORLD, AND CIVILIZATION FOR THEMSELVES, A NEW LAND OF MILK AND HONEY....FOR ALL....FOR HEAVEN IS IN THE EYE OF THE BEHOLDER. OR....TOTAL AND COMPLETE CONTROL BY GOVERNMENT, AND CORPORATE POLICE...KINDA LIKE WHAT BUSH WANTS TO BE ABLE TO OVER RIDE ANY STATE, IF THEY DEEM IT NECESSARY ... THAT IS SCARY. GIVEN WHAT HE DEEMS NECESSARY, BUT, I'M NOT GONNA SPOUT ON HIM....I DON'T NEED TO, THINGS ARE BEING REVEALED, AND I BELIEVE WE AS A PEOPLE ARE NOT THAT ASLEEP...WE SEE THE INJUSTICE AND THE LIES...DON'T WE! NO NEED TO THROW STONES....HE IS AT THE MERCY NOW....HOW SHALL WE TREAT HIM?....LIKE HE TREATED OTHERS....SHALL HE BE JUDGED BY HIS OWN ACTIONS?...INDEED....THIS IS TRUE JUSTICE....BETWEEN HIM AND HIS CREATOR. SO THERE IS THAT....AND OF COURSE...I LEAN TOWARDS...I MEAN...LIVE IN THE AQUARIAN ENERGY....ITS COMIN ON ON....OR SIMPLY....I HAVE HOPE.....TO BE CONTINUED......I HAVE NOT FINISHED MY HYPOTHESIS YET, IT IS ONLY A THIRD OF THE WAY .....I AM AFTER ALL....TANGENT WOMAN....BUT, A TANGENT WOMAN OF LOVE..................EHEHEHEHEHHE XOXO
OCT, 30TH, 2005
WHAT A LAST COUPLE OF WEEKS, HMMM...FINALLY, THE BEGINNING OF THE END....THE COLLAPSE OF THE DYNAMIC, AGGRESSIVE, GREEDY POWER....IT'S ALL COMING TO A POINT, NOT EVEN CLOSE TO A HEAD YET....SO MUCH MORE TO BE UNCOVERED FOR THE PEOPLE. .. DON'T NEED TO SHOUT ANYMORE, BECAUSE ITS ALL COMING OUT FOR EVERYONE TO SEE....THE FUNNY THING IS, WHAT WILL BE SEEN WILL ONLY BE THE TIP OF THE ICEBERG....AVERAGE MAN WILL NEVER SEE THE TRUTH OF WHAT IS REALLY GOIN ON OUR BEAUTIFUL BLUE PLANET. I FEEL HOPE AND CONFIDENCE THAT WE CAN STOP AND EVEN REVERSE GLOBAL WARMING....THERE ARE SO MANY LITTLE THINGS EVERYONE CAN DO TO HELP.....I HAVE BEEN A GRANOLA GIRL, TREE HUGGING PERSON SINCE I WAS A BABY....AND THEN, THERE WAS LEADED GAS....I REMEMBER FEELING SO SAD ABOUT THE POLLUTION, IN THE CITY WHERE I WOULD SPEND MY HOLIDAYS AND SUMMERS WITH MY 2ND FAMILY....WE LIVED IN THE HOLLYWOOD HILLS....AND IT WAS SO BEAUTIFUL...BUT THE AIR COULD BE WORN ON YOUR SKIN....AND IT WOULD GIVE ME A RASH....I MUCH PREFERRED TO BE IN TUOLUMNE COUNTY IN THE PINES...WITH MY HOMIES.....THAT WAS WHERE I HAVE ALWAYS FELT MOST FREE.....SO GROWING UP IN THE MOUNTAINS....THE ENVIRONMENT HAS ALWAYS BEEN A VERY STRONG PASSION TO PROTECT, THE BEAUTIFUL PLACE, WE ARE DESTROYING SIMPLY THROUGH GREED....YOU SAY SIMPLY.....I SAY YES....SIMPLY. THIS IS THE ROOT CAUSE OF THE PROBLEM....SO WE MUST YANK IT OUT AT THAT SOURCE. NOW THAT, IS NOT SO SIMPLE. SO SINCE I HAVE MY JOURNAL...LET ME PUT A FEW OF THE LITTLE THINGS WE DO TO KEEP UP OUR PART OF CONSCIOUS CONSUMPTION.
I'M A HUGE FAN OF GRADATION, THINGS HAPPENING IN STEPS, SO OF COURSE BEING AMERICAN, AND KNOWING THIS DISPOSABLE SOCIETY WE LIVE IN AND ARE RAISED IN, I CAN UNDERSTAND, THAT IT COULD BE HARD TO GIVE UP OUR CUTE LITTLE PACKAGING, YES?....I KNOW WHERE I LIVE, AND ALL THE CITIES, I HAVE STAYED IN ACCEPT FOR LAS VEGAS...GO FIGURE...HAS RECYCLING PROGRAMS....THE LITTLE TRIANGLE ON UR PACKAGE INDICATES IT IS RECYCLABLE, JUST RINSE IT, AND PUT IT IN THE BIN...CARD BOARD, ALL JUNK MAIL, OR FAX PAPER, OR PAPER ANYTHING...CAN BE RECYCLED. BREAK IT DOWN, AND PUT IT IN THE BIN.....NOW HERE IS SOMETHING THAT SHOCKS ME ALL THE TIME....WHEN WE BUY A SIX-PACK...OF BEER...OR SODA...OR A SOBE...OR ANYTHING...RED BULL....WE GET CHARGED 4-8 CENTS FOR THAT CAN OR BOTTLE....NOW THAT MIGHT NOT SEEM LIKE ALOT TO YOU...BUT THINK ABOUT HOW MANY BEERS, OR SODAS YOU HAVE CONSUMED IN UR LIFETIME.....AND DON'T FORGET THIS...4 CENTS CAN BE DIVIDED INTO A MILLION...IF THAT IS UR MOTIVATION,....THE SHOCKING PART IS WE ARE CHARGED THAT CRV OR WHERE EVER YOU LIVE AND WE DON'T GO AND GET OUR MONEY BACK!!!! WELL...HEHEH WE DO....SO SAVING THE PLANET IS A WIN WIN SITUATION....TAKE CANVAS WITH YOU TO THE STORE.....CANVAS IS SO MUCH CUTER....BRING A MUG TO STARBUCKS!...IT STAYS WARMER...BY A HYBRID....SAVE U MONEY.....GET TO GO SOLO IN THE CARPOOL LANE...YEAH...THAT ROCKS....OH AND BY THE WAY...BACK TO THE CAN AND BOTTLE THING.....IT MAKES ABOUT 30.OO A MONTH...GIVE OR TAKE...HOW MUCH WE ARE IN TOWN...AND IF WE HAVE PARTIES.....IF UR LOADED....DONATE THE CASH TO YOUR FAVORITE CHARITY....SO MANY CHARITIES ARE NEEDY NOW....AND WILL BE FOR SOME TIME DUE TO ALL THE NATURAL DISASTERS.....THE THING IS MY DAIMES...THERE ARE MORE COMING WITH MORE IMPACT, AND MORE FREQUENCY.....HOLD ON...IT'S ABOUT TO BE BUMPY...BUT TAKE COMFORT IN THE KNOWLEDGE THE BALANCE IS DAWNING, THE SCALES HAVE TIPPED AND THE PENDULUM IS SWINGING IN A NEW DIRECTION....THE ANTICIPATION IS EXHILARATING.....WATCHING HISTORY UNFOLD...BEING A PART OF IT.....SHAPING IT...ALL OF US....ALL OF THE CHILDREN OF THE LIGHT......THE PURPOSE OF OUR BIRTHS.
AGAIN, THOUGH, MY POINT IS THIS....IF U HAVE A CHOICE....SUCH AS SOLAR POWER...OR TRADITIONAL COAL POLLUTION, GOVERNMENT REGULATED POWER....WHY WOULD YOU NOT CHOOSE TO BE INDEPENDENT....I KNOW I KNOW.....WE ALL FEEL SO SAFE WITH THE TRIED AND TRUE RIGHT? TOO MUCH OF A HASSLE, WHY NOT JUST PAY THE PIPER....DON'T MAKE WAVES.....WELL....MAYBE 20 OR EVEN 10 YEARS AGO...THAT COULD HAVE BEEN LEGITIMATE....BUT NOW WITH THE BURDEN OF KNOWLEDGE OF ALL THE CORRUPT CORPORATIONS STEALING AND MANIPULATING THE PEOPLE....ENRON....FOR ONE EXAMPLE......WHERE FEDERAL CONVICTIONS HAVE BEEN HANDED DOWN....WE CAN NO LONGER FUND CORRUPTION, IN OUR OWN GOVERNMENT, KNOWINGLY SUPPORTING THE IMBALANCE, GREED, FOR IT WILL BARE DOWN ON YOUR CHILDREN AND YOUR CHILDREN'S CHILDREN, THIS MY FRIENDS IS THE BURDEN OF KNOWLEDGE. EVERY LITTLE STEP WE TAKE TO EMPOWER OURSELVES, IS ONE STEP CLOSER TO OUR SALVATION....AND THE THING IS ALL IT TAKES IS JUST A LITTLE AWARENESS....AND A LOT OF HEART...AND I KNOW SO MANY OF YOU OUT THERE HAVE THE HEART...AFTER ALL THE HEART............IS THE EARTH...HEART...SAME WORD......I DO IT ALL THE TIME...I KNOW...I AM TRYING TO MAKE A POINT...BUT IT IS BEYOND A WORD...WORDS ARE IN FACT...................MAGIC...............AND GOD SPOKE THE WORD...............AND THE WORLD WAS MADE.................
I HAVE HOPE TODAY OF A FUTURE....GONE IS CRUELTY.....LACK...........GREED.................HATRED.............................DIVISION................THE SUPERNATURAL UNIVERSE IS FORCING THE MATERIAL UNIVERSE TO UNITE....FOR DIVIDED..............EVERYTHING...AND EVERYONE IS PART OF THIS TAPESTRY, SO FINELY WOVEN, SOME PATTERNS RIGID, AND VIOLENT, SOME GENTLE, AND MESMERIZING, ALL FORMING ONE CONTINUOUS IMAGE, OF WHAT WE ARE AS A COLLECTIVE.....I AM HAPPY TO KNOW AND FEEL SO MANY CARE....MORE, I AM SURE....THAN WE WOULD EVEN REALIZE.....LOVE IS THE MOST POWERFUL FORCE ON THIS PLANET....AND I DO MEAN THIS, THIS IS NOT SOME FLUFFY FLOWER STATEMENT......FOR IF YOU REAL LY UNDERSTOOD WHAT LOVE IS .... YOU WOULD KNOW OF IT'S OMINOUS POWER....I FOR ONE.........CHOOSE TO USE IT AS MY WEAPON OF MASS SEDUCTION...........................ALL FOR THE NOW................HAPPY HALLOWEENY................... BE A GOOD LITTLE WHAT EVER..............THERE ARE SURPRISES ROUND EVERY CORNER......STAY IN THE MOMENT!!!!! BON NUIT...............................ME
OCT, 23RD, 2005
I LOVE THIS WEATHER, SO COOL, CLEAR, EXCITEMENT IN THE AIR, FEELINGS OF INTIMACY...I MUST SAY, TODAY....HAS BEEN CUTE.......WE HAVE JUST STARTED WRITING A ROCK OPERA....I SHOULDNT EVEN BE TALKIN ABOUT IT REALLY....ALL DAY WE HAVE BEEN WRITING.....EXCEPT WHEN WE WENT TO STARBUCKS FOR A QUICK LIL, I DONT KNOW....BREATHER....WE TOOK THE SOSA....SHE IS GROWING BEAUTIFULLY....I REALLY DONT WANNA SPEAK ON THIS TUNE...IT IS SO SO SO SOMETHING....IF FEELS SO SACRED, IT ALWAYS WRITES ITSELF....AND LATELY WE HAVE BEEN IN A WRITING MODE...AND I AM LOVIN IT DEEPLY, BECAUSE IT IS A VORTEX...BEYOND MATERIAL EXISTENCE...AND WHEN UR IN IT NOTHIN ELSE MATTERS. WE COME OUT TO SHARE THOUGH...WHEN THE MOOD IS JUST RIGHT...AND WE HAVE SLIPPED INTO THE GAP BETWEEN THE KNOWN, AND THE UNKNOWN....THEIR WE ARE PERCEIVED...AND HER BIRTH SHALL BE. SO THE BOYS ARE IN THE PLAYSTATION, LORD OF THE RINGS...ONLY TWO PLAYERS...NOT COOL....THE OTHER GAMES ARE NOT AS FUN...SO HERE I GO SOLO ON ZELDA...FUCK EM....I LOVE PLAYIN BY MYSELF ANY WAY! NO, JUST PLAYIN....I UNDERSTAND THE BOY THING....SO I GO OFF ON MY OWN...DO MY THANG....WHICH LEADS US TO THIS...WHICH IS A JOURNAL. ONE MIGHT SAY...BUT SIRI IT'S SATURDAY NIGHT...GO OUT...THEY DON'T UNDERSTAND.....I AM ALWAYS OUT AND ABOUT...MY SPIRIT IS FREE.....WHAT IS REAL IS REAL....I DONT NEED TO GO OUTSIDE MYSELF FOR FUN...I AM FUN, I LOVE LIFE, THE DOGGIES, THE FAM, THE HOME, SIRIUS, THE JOURNEY, THE PAIN, THE PLEASURE, THE GROWTH, THE SEASONS, CAN GO ON AND ON AND ON....OH BETTER NOT START THAT!!! THE INNER IS WAY COOLER...THAN THE OUTER LAYER OF FAKE FUNK. DONT NEED NO JUNK, SHINY THINGS THEY ALWAYS FADE ...SO PUT THEM IN THERE SHALLOW GRAVE. SO MY BRO SAYS....SIRI....I HAVE OFFENDED HIM....AND I SAY BACK TO MY BRO....THE WAY I SAID IT WAS MEANT THAT.....NOTHIN IS EVERYTHING...AND EVERYTHING IS NOTHING....THE YIN TO THE YANG, THE GIVE TO THE GAIN. GAIN TO THE GIVE, THE MORE THAT WE LIVE, WE SEE THIS IS IT, PLEASE DONT EVER BELIEVE, I WOULD GIVE YOU ANY GRIEF....IN YOUR BOUNTY I BELIEVE...NOW ITS URS TO ACHIEVE....SO RECIEVE, AND BELIEVE...EVERYTHING I GIVE TO YOU IS PRASAD. A GIFT FROM GOD. AND SO YOU SAY...U HAVE BEEN KINKY, SPEAKING OF BEING NAKED...HMMMM, DID I.....I NEVER USUALLY READ IT BACK....OR ELSE I WOULD PROBABLY EDIT MY FLOW...IF I SPOKE OF BEING NAKED....THAN....I PROBABLY WANTED TO BE NAKED RIGHT THERE AND THEN....WE ARE ALL BORN NAKED...AND I AM GOING TO CONFESS HERE DEAR ONES, I AM AN OFFICIAL NUDEY FRUITY!!!....ME MOTHER WAS A TOTAL AND COMPLETE HIPPY....AND I LOVE IT.....YES, I GREW UP WITH GRANOLA, AND INCENSE, AND CHANTING, AND SINGING, I USED TO GO TO THE JAZZ CLUBS WITH MY MOM, SHE WAS A SINGER, I WOULD SIT UP FRONT LIKE AN ADULT, I WOULD ORDER SHIRLEY TEMPLES, HAD A 1 LIMIT, BUT SOMETIMES I PUSHED IT TO 2, MY BRO WAS OLDER...BUT I WAS MORE CHILL, AND KNEW HOW TO HANG...I WAS ABOUT 5, MY MOTHER PASSED OF AN OVERDOSE WHEN I WAS SEVEN. SINCE THEN, THE JOURNEY, HAS BEEN SOMEWHAT SURREAL...WHICH AGAIN...BRINGS US TO THIS JOURNAL.
SO NOW...DOES ANYONE WONDER....WELL, WONDER NO MORE, I HAVE YES ONCE AGAIN, OPENED UP THE DOOR, OR HAS IT BEEN OPENED TO ME, THIS TIME FULLY FREE...BEFORE I FELT THE PULL OF THE TRIANGLE, AND U KNOW I CANNOT ENTANGEL, SO AWAY I DID MAKE, TO GIVE U THE BREAK, TO KNOW WHAT U NEED, IS TRULY INDEED, WITHOUT HASTE, OR UNNECESSARY SPEED, THE LOVE THAT U FEEL, IT HAS ALWAYS BEEN SO REAL...AND NO ONE COULD TELL U THE DEAL, ONLY UR OWN HEART, AND THATS FOR REAL. I HAVE NEVER BEEN HERE TO DEMAND, OR INFLICT FEAR, THIS IS NOT MY WAY, MORE THAT, THE FLOW SHOULD BE RESPECTED, I HAVE NEVER FELT REJECTED, OR NEGLECTED, ONLY REFLECTIVE, TO HOW I SHOULD CARRY THESE FEELINGS...SO UNNECESSARY, ILLOGICAL, DISTURBING, ANNOYING, PERTURBING.....this my dears .... is the sound of MY AGITATION....MY SOULS FRUSTRATION...OH YES BELIEVE THE SOUL...SHE WILL LONG FOR ALL THAT SHE IS PART OF ....SOMETIMES FOR LIFETIMES...DO NOT MISTAKE THE PULL OF THE TWIN.......SOUL......UNDERSTANDING THIS, I HAVE BECOME INCREASINGLY PATIENT...ALMOST COMPLACENT....YET STILL BELOVED YEARNING.....AND IF YOU ARE MINE ...YOUR SOUL IS YEARNING IN RHYME. ... RHYTHM SUBLIME....THINK ITS TIME...FOR U AND I...TO BECOME ONE ...UNDER THE SUN....HOW MUCH FUN...TO CHANGE THE WORLD...WITH ONE GIANT PEARL....RARE AND OPULENT, PROTECTED, BY THE ELEGANT ELEPHANT.
LOVE IS DELUXE, AN, I'M NOT TALKIN ABOUT BUCKS....THE JOURNEY IS WHERE, NO AVERAGE MORTAL, DARE, TRAVEL, FOR THE PATH SHALL UNRAVEL...FROM TIME TO TIME...THE KNIGHT WILL GO BLIND, THE WITCH IN THE FOREST, SHE SUMMONED A CHARM...TO LURE AND DECEIVE HIM, HER LUST WILL DO HARM....AWAKEN FAIR PRINCE....AWAKEN, AND BECOME A KING, FOR THERE CAN BE NO KING, UNLESS HE IS JOINED BY HIS QUEEN. UNTIL THEN, IN THE COURT YOU SHALL BE, AWAITING UR TURN TO BE THE RIGHTFUL KING.
AND STILL, THE APPROACH IS SOMEWHAT UNSTEADY, EVEN THOUGH THE PREY HAS BEEN CONQUERED.....IS IT A TRAP?.....NO ...IT IS THE INTOXICATING DRUG OF LOVE..............ITS MY KARMA TO SURRENDER, ULTIMATELY, IT IS MY DEEPEST DESIRE, THOUGH IT IS YET TO BE EXPLORED.....I HAVE NOT YET FALLEN UNDER THE SPELL OF MORTAL HUMAN LOVE, AS IT IS SPOKEN OF. PERHAPS, I SHOULD LIKE A DIFFERENT KIND. DEEPER....CANT EXPLAIN...SOMEONE KNOWS OF WHAT I SPEAK...SOMEONE.
AND AT THAT, IT CANNOT BE SPOKEN, THIS IS FELT, COMPLETELY, WITHOUT VERBAL CONFIRMATION, FOR WORDS, ONLY GET IN THE WAY OF TRUE LOVE. THE WORDS HAVE YET TO BE UTTERED THAT CAN CONVEY THIS TYPE OF EMOTION....I HAVE DIFFERENT WAYS I LIKE TO EXPRESS THINGS TO MY BELOVED....THO, I LOVE WORDS IN MY EAR....WHEN THEY ARE NEAR...JUST ENOUGH TO LET ME LINGER IN THE MOMENT. WHEN THEY ARE NEAR, THERE IS A SENSORY OVERLOAD......I CAN ONLY STAND SO MUCH CONTACT....I USED TO PRAY FOR HIM TO MARRY....SO THAT I COULD BE FREE FOREVER...AN EXUSE TO LIVE ANOTHER LIFETIME IN THE CAVE ONE WOULD SAY....WELL...WITH MY BAND......BECAUSE ... I KNOW THERE IS NO ONE BUT HIM....EVEN THOUGH I WILL DRIFT FROM TIME TO TIME....IT HELPS ME REGAIN MY SANITY, AND MY INDEPENDENCE...BUT HE IS STRONG....AND CLEVER....AND MEANS TO HAVE HIS WAY. I TOO AM ADAPTABLE, AND PRECISE, AND AWARE....AND MEAN TO LET HIM HAVE HIS WAY....HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.........FOR IN THE END, I CANNOT DENY, THAT I AM HIS. AND THE END IS ONLY THE BEGINNING...AND IN THE SURRENDER, IS THE EQUAL WINNING.
OK...SO THAT'S ENOUGH TONIGHT.......................ONE TWENTY FOUR.....LOVE COME FIND ME ONCE MORE...IN MY DREAMS...YOU OPEN THAT DOOR.....AND BABY THIS TIME, I KNOW, I WONT BE WAKIN UP ON THAT FLOOR. ALWAYS ME SIRI DI
Oct 18th.....It's a full moon.
I FEEL ALL THE BEAUTIFUL WEATHER AROUND TODAY...THUNDER, LIGHTNING...FULL MOON, A MINI HURRICANE UPROOTED A PLANT TODAY....THE WEATHER IS INTENSE....I LOVE INTENSITY. THE SDB HAS A NEW PUPPY...HER NAME IS SAMMY SOSA....WES FOUND HER UNDER A CAR ABANDONED AND SCARRED ALL ALONE IN THE STREETS....SHE WAS AFRAID OF EVERYONE EXCEPT FOR WES....THE FIRE STATION HAD ARRIVED TO TAKE HER TO THE POUND WHEN WES HAPPENED UPON HER....SHE IS AMAZING!!!...I AM NOT SURE WHAT BREED SHE IS...SOME BOXER?....SOME DOBIE....ALL WE KNOW IS THAT SHE IS AMAZING...AND BEAUTIFUL....THE VET SAYS SHE IS ABOUT 4MONTHS OLD........WE WELCOME HER TO OUR FAMILY...SHE'S THE NEW LITTLE BABY. WE HAD A SHOW ON SAT NIGHT....SAW SOME OLD FRIENDS...GOOD TIMES....WES'S B DAY IS COMIN UP...AND THE DVD IS FINALLY BEING FINISHED...SAW SOME OF IT, AND IT LOOKS AMAZING...SO HAPPY WITH IT......HOPE YA LIKE IT PEOPLES...I REALLY DO CUZ WE MADE IT FOR YOU!!!!
I WISH I COULD JUST SPILL MY DEEPEST FEELINGS RIGHT HERE ON LINE....BUT YA KNOW.....NO WAY!!!! THE HIGHEST STRUGGLE IS THAT OF ATTACHMENT. AND THEN THROW IN COMMITMENT TO COMPLETE...AND IT BECOMES A WHOLE WEIRD MIND BENDING OXYMORON. I DESIRE...BUT THERE IS ONLY ONE DESIRE.....I ENGAGE...ONLY TO WITHDRAW...I LONG FOR SOMETHING I CANNOT FULLY UNDERSTAND, ONLY THAT IT HAS IMPRISONED ME IN ITS MENAGERIE OF SHADOWS AND ILLUSIONS....COMPLETE WITH MEDIA FANFARE. HEHE THAT PART ABOUT THE MEDIA...IT IS A JOKE. NO FOR REAL...IT REALLY WAS. LOVE IS SUPER SACRED, AND SUPER SECRET, IT IS A TEMPLE, A GARDEN, AN EXOTIC PASSION OF THE HIGHEST ORDER, ONLY THEY MAY ENTER THE TEMPLE, AND TOGETHER ONLY THEY CAN LIGHT THE ETERNAL FLAME, THE COMBINATION IS THE KEY TO THE GATE. FOR YEARS, I HAVE WATCHED MY BELOVED WATCH ME, FOR YEARS WE HAVE PLAYED THIS GAME, AND YET MY LOVE HAS EVEN GAINED. MY BELOVED IS INCOMPARABLE, I SEE ONLY HIM, THOUGH, I MUST ADMIT, I HAVE TRIED, AND WILL ALWAYS TRY TO BE FREE OF HIM ....THERE IS ALWAYS SOMETHING IN ME THAT WILL REMAIN DETACHED, I CANNOT EXPLAIN....IT'S JUST A PART OF WHAT I AM MADE OF...IT DRIVES ME MAD.....IT MUST BE THE MUSIC......REMEMBER...SHE IS A JEALOUS MISTRESS............REMEMBER SIRI...............AND I STILL DESIRE....AND BECOME AFRAID, THAT I SHALL NEVER SEE YOUR FACE AGAIN....BECAUSE THIS TRAIN IS ON THE TRACKS, AND THERE IS NO HOLDIN BACK....BUT EVERY TIME WE MEET...MY LIFE BECOMES A LITTLE MORE SWEET....MAYBE I CAN WRITE A NEW SONG....SING ABOUT YOU ALL DAY LONG....EVERY WRITER HAS THEIR....MUSE, AND TO THE ONE, ONLY HEAVEN CAN CHOOSE, THE ONLY WAY TO CHANNEL MUSIC IS THRU THE PURE CHANNEL OF PROJECTION.....FOR THE ONE TO WHICH YOU HAVE THE MOST AFFECTION. AND THIS AINT A LIE. ASK BEETHOVEN, AND HIS IMMORTAL BELOVED, WHAT A JEALOUS MISTRESS CAN DO TO A LOVE, AND YET WE ALL STILL CRAVE THE SOUND OF OUR OWN AGITATION....YES?...OR NO....BECAUSE IN THE TENSENESS OF THE STRING....IS, THE PURITY OF THE NOTE....THE EMOTION....INEXTRICABLY PARASITIC, AND MUST REMAIN THAT WAY IN ORDER TO SURVIVE, YIN TO THE YANG, PLEASURE TO THE PAIN. IN ORDER FOR THE THERE TO BE BALANCE...IT WILL ALWAYS BE THIS WAY. OR NOT...I DONT CARE...WE WROTE THE SONG....AND MEANT IT STRONG....I TOLD YOU ....I DONT HAVE TO HAVE....MY DESIRE IS ENOUGH....IT KEEPS ME HERE...ANOTHER DAY.....AND PERHAPS IT SHALL ALWAYS BE THIS WAY...OR NOT...ONLY GOD CAN SAY.
I NEED TO TAKE A HOT BATH.......IT WILL CLEAR MY SOUL.............LOVE YOU ALL...............GOOD NIGHT.............................SD
WELL IT'S OCT 2ND...2005
IT'S TWO IN THE MORNING, BUT WE WERE JUST WRITING...JAMMIN A NEW TUNE....WHEN ALL UR DREAMS COME TRUE......BLUESY....REAL HOT...ANY WAYS WE BE JAMMIN, BUT NOW THE BOYS STARTED GETTING KNICK PICKY WITH EACH OTHER....U KNOW ITS A DUDE THANG...SO...REALLY I JUST GOT A CHANCE TO COME IN AND JUST LET SOME STUFF OUT THAT'S BEEN INSIDE FOR A WHILE....OK ...SO NOW THEY ARE GOIN TO PLAY WES'S NEW PLAYSTATION 2....I LIKE THAT GAME....LORD OF THE RINGS....4 CAN PLAY AT ONE TIME....BUT RIGHT NOW..I AM SPILLING...REMEMBER.....
I BELIEVE TODAY WAS A SOLAR ECLIPSE....THAT IS SOME STRONG STUFF MAN...SO OF COURSE WE WERE WRITING...AND THE SONG IS SO POSITIVE...THE LAST ONE ... I DON'T CARE...WELL THAT ONE IS SORTA HMMMM....INTENSE, YEAH, THAT IS THE WORD ...THINGS ARE AWESOME WITH THE FAM...CANT SAY MORE ABOUT THAT....THE BOND GROWS DAILY...WEIRD HUH?....BUT I JUST REALIZED SOMETHING...TO ME THAT IS VERY IMPORTANT IS...THAT I AM NOT IN A HURRY....EACH AND EVERY MOMENT IS SAVOR ABLE...YOU ARE FREE....WHEN U DWELL IN THE BREATH OF THE MOMENT....ALSO THE BEAUTY OF HOPEFUL NESS TOWARDS THE IMMEDIATE FUTURE...PEACE...PROTECTION...PURPOSE FUL LIFE...AESTHETIC...WHERE YOUR LIFE BECOMES ART...EVERYTHING YOU DO IS AN EXPRESSION OF THE BEAUTY OF THE DIVINE SUPREME BEING. YEAH...I AM TALKIN ABOUT LOVE..AND THE ART OF LOVE....IT IS AN ART FORM...THE HIGHEST IN AN BLEST CONJUGAL UNION....IT IS ACHIEVABLE...YET HARDLY EVER ATTAINED.....MANY HAVE SOUGHT AFTER, FEW HAVE GAINED....LOVE IS NOTHING LESS THAN EVERYTHING...AND THEY CANNOT JUST BE WORD....IT JUST MUST BE....IT IS UP TO YOU TO NEVER BETRAY YOUR TRUEST SELF, LEST YOU SUFFER LIFETIMES OF LONELINESS......UNTIL...THAT DAY, WHEN SHE KNEW SHE CAME TO STAY....AND THIS TIME YOU DIDN'T PUSH HER AWAY.....HE'S NOT AFRAID ANYMORE...AFRAID TO LET GO.....BECAUSE HE KNOWS HE CAN NEVER POSSESS HER SOUL....
AND THIS HE IS GRATEFUL FOR, HE HAS PAID SO MANY TIMES, HE KNOWS HE CANNOT POSSESS THAT WHICH HE DESIRES...IT MUST POSSESS HIM, FULLY, COMPLETELY FOR HIM TO SURRENDER....REACHING IN BUT NEVER FINDING THE END, OF WHERE WE BEGAN......OR IS IT BEGIN, AGAIN...MY FRIEND? YOU KNOW I GOT UR BACK TO THE END.....YOU'VE NEVA HAD SUCH A FRIEND....YOU'LL BELIEVE AGAIN....THE NEW DAY IS ON THE HORIZON.....STORMY WEATHER....FOR SOME TIME THO...KEEP ME CLOSE, YOU KNOW I'LL DO THE SAME....IF YOU NEED ME NOW...JUST THINK MY NAME, AND I'LL BE THERE, I DON'T CARE WHAT THE NEIGHBORS...LET THEM STARE...... I'LL STAND OUT IN THE STREET WITH JUST MY UNDERWEAR...I SAID I DONT CARE.....YOU NEED TO KNOW....TO JUST LET GO AND FLOW....MY LOVE IS UNCONDITIONAL....DONT MATTER TODAY OR TOMORROW.....EVERY MOMENT IS SACRED....I ALWAYS FEEL BEST WHEN I'M NAKED. TEN YEARS FROM NOW OR NEXT WEEK....I'M FEELIN COMPLETE......SO GOOD NOT TO NEED...BUT TO BE NEEDED......AND YOU KNOW THAT REAL LOVERS ARE NEVA MISTREATED...CUZ IT AINT PRETTY BABY WHEN U KINDA SHITTY...IT'S A PITY...POOF...I'M IN ANOTHER CITY...ALWAYS STAYIN BUSY.....BUT I'LL OPEN THE DOOR ONCE MORE.....I PRAY YOU ARE WHO I'VE BEEN STAYIN FOR. ..... .. ... .. .. SO MUSHY HUH? YOU KNOW U GOTTA JUST LOVE IT....CUZ IT'S REAL..............................MUAHS ME
OCTOBER 1ST, 2005...............
DO NOT FEAR ANYTHING NOW.... UNDERSTAND.....YOU ARE STRONG ENOUGH FOR THIS, JUST UNDERSTAND.
THE BABIES ARE A CRYING..THE CITY SHE IS DYING...MANY SOULS ARE FLYING...THEY WANNA NEW MAKE....THEY ARE SO MUCH BETTER BUILT THESE DAYS ...WITH SOOOO MANY EXTRA'S............STANDARD!!............YET IN ALL THE DESTRUCTION....KNOW THAT IT IS THE PERFECT PLATFORM FOR REBIRTH.
NATURE WILL ALWAYS RENEW ITSELF.....EVEN IF IT TAKES MILLIONS OF YEARS....WHICH....IS A POSSIBILITY..... IF WE CONTINUE TO PERSIST IN NEGATIVE ACTIONS...GREAT OR SMALL COME ONE COME ALL....LOOK TO THE MIRROR......AND REMEMBER YOUR CALL.....STAND TALL....DONT FALL....TO THE ILLUSION, THAT YOU ARE SO SMALL...THAT U HAVE NO POWER TO CHANGE THE WAY....THE POWERS THAT BE ACT TODAY...AS IF TO SAY....IT'S OK....TO BOMB AND STEAL....IN ANY WAY...IF WERE TO SEE A NEWER WAY , A BETTER DAY....SURELY WAR IS NOT THE WAY...WHAT MORE CAN I SAY.......CAN U HEAR ME ANYWAY?.....OH GO DRINK YOUR MOCHA CHOCALATTE U DRINK EVERYDAY.........I KNOW CUZ SOMETIMES I DO THE SAME.
IT'S TRUE, I CAN GO IN AND OUT OF OBSESSION FROM TIME TO TIME...WHETHER IT BE EXERCISE, OR WORK, OR SOME OTHER FREAKY HABIT...I CAN GET INTO IT! AS OF THIS DAY... I FOUND THAT....I CAN LET GO OF ANYTHING MATERIAL.....THAT WHAT IS TRUE...JUST IS. WITHOUT NEED OF ANY QUALIFICATION .
WE HAVE LEARNED SO MUCH IN THESE YEARS...ABSORBED...SO MUCH INFORMATION....AND THE RAMS ARE GETTING FASTER....SO ACTUALLY WE ARE CATCHING UP WITH THIS INFO....BUT ONE THING EARTH HISTORY IN THE LAST HUNDREDS OF YEARS OR PERHAPS...THOUSANDS.....MANS ACTION HAVE BEEN DOMINATED BY WAR....VIOLENCE.....AND ACQUISITION OF POWER. IT SEEMS EVERYTHING IS BASED IN THIS PYRAMID.....SO THEN ENTROPY, OR ACTUALLY DOING THE EXACT OPPOSITE...WOULD EVENTUALLY BRING THE PLANET INTO BALANCE? HMMM....JUST THINKING ABOUT THAT......I REMEMBER ALWAYS THINKING....HOW COME SOME HAVE....AND SOME DON'T? THIS WOULD NATURALLY CAUSE AN IMBALANCE IN THE PERSONALITY.......I THINK THE BASE BASE ROOT ROOT ANSWER WOULD BE.............GREED.....IT IS THE ROOT OF THE PROBLEM.....SO HOW DOES ONE UP ROOT SUCH A DEEP AND POWERFUL ROOT BASE?.....WELL IF TINY TERMITES KNOW THEY CAN TAKE DOWN A WHOLE HOUSE......E=MC2.....DO DO DO DO DO DO DO DO (THINK TWILIGHT ZONE).....IN ESSENCE.....THE PROBLEM DOESN'T LOOK THAT HARD TO SOLVE WITH A LITTLE ORGANIZATION.
BUT THE WILL MUST BE ONE....UNITED.....COMMITTED....TRY TO NOT PERSONALIZE GREED....IT IS IMPERSONAL.....IT'S POWER LIES IN THE RECEPTIVITY OF THE HEART TO BE THIS.......SO LETS GO BEYOND THE DONOR CARRIER OF THE ENERGY.....THE PEOPLE MUST SEE IT AND CALL IT OUT BY IT'S NAME, ONCE IDENTIFIED, IT WILL BE SHOCKED...AND VULNERABLE....AND ULTIMATELY VANQUISH ABLE.
WELL IT'S OBVIOUS MOTHER EARTH IS ALIVE...AND VERY VERY POWERFUL....SHE CAN HUMBLE THE MIGHTIEST OF MAN....YES?....NO?....ME TINKS YES!!! SHE EVEN BROUGHT IN HER DAMAGE CONTROL SPECIALIST...AND WE STILL DIDN'T GET IT , I AM EQUALLY SURE...THERE ARE MANY WHO STILL DONT GET IT.....I BELIEVE THE CURVE OF GETTING IT WILL INCREASE RAPIDLY, AND PEAK OUT AT ABOUT 5 YEARS FROM NOW....JUST BEFORE THE 2012.........THE END IS THE BEGINNING.....OUI? OU.....NON?.....I KNOW I KNOW...I'M A SILLY LITTLE GIRL...IN THIS MIXED UP WORLD.................CEPT.....NOT SUCH A LITTLE GIRL.................AND I CAN STILL SEE THE PEARLS...............I WONT REPENT, OR RELENT......HEAVEN SENT, VICTORY BENT......THE GENTLE MORNING DEW OF THE NEW DAY IS UPON US..............BREATH IT IN DEEPLY..............DON'T TELL ME YOUR HAPPY....UNLESS YOUR A FOOL.....AND FOOL AND HIS COMPANY...HAPPEN TO BE IN THE RULE.....BUT TELL ME YOUR HOPEFUL, AND WILLING TO TRY, TO START WITH THIS PROCESS, TO TURN TO INSIDE..TO TURN, TURN, TWILL BE OUR DELIGHT....................TILL BY TURNING, TURNING WE COME OUT RIGHT!!!!! PEACE Y'ALL THAT'S ME................SIRI D