I love U.

Posted on February 10, 2012 by Siri D

I luv u because, your’re alive, you thrive, you strive…everyday…. to earn a new shape… never try to escape… you do … not try… you thrive.

if you weren’t alive… i would not know…or…be able to show… how much…. i adore you.

did you come here… just for me? or to share yourself and your beauty… for all to see… admire…. the way you grow… the way you glow… any one can see but not everyone …can know.

and so, with this …a kiss… not a trist… or a romp…. a galaxy worth of pomp… i will display for you… because you knew… just what to do… all u had to do…. was just be you.

Siri D

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really? …. more fish in the sea???

Posted on February 10, 2012 by Siri D

Thank you to any and all who take the time to comment…good bad or indifferent…. its your time and you can do anything you want with it….so i appreciate it ;)

I have often heard the statement…. dont worry… there’s plenty fish in the sea …. well … as with anything else…this will evolve also… recently…. my friends were in Hawaii they took a glass bottom boat to go and look at all the sea creatures…. they have traveled there seasonally for years now….

my friends remarked when they returned home… where are all the fish? all the creatures…. yes there were a couple…but not like they used to be…. yes there is more ocean than land on Earth…so… maybe they have gone where the nets and the divers…and the oil spills are not… somewhere man cannot pollute… who knows…. but….. things…. are definitely changing…. and so is marine life… animal kingdom…. there are so many animals on the endangered list now, its incredible… i guess we have encroached…. and it is 2012 … so with 7 billion just under or over…. one would think there are plenty of fish in the sea…as far as dating…and mating will go …yes???

well…errr …. no.

if you are not particularly picky… and you dont mind and or maybe prefer serial dating….then …well yes…. variety will be your spice of life…….. ;)

but … if you have a more discriminating manner… and you truly want to find that “one” the more people we encounter… the harder it is to weed out and find the “one” and i know so many people are looking for that one… or that someone” in the very least …. good … honest company…. a friend….hopefully a faithful lover….

for most.. these are turbulent times…. with all the upheavals and changes going on……for some it is maddening… for others exhilarating…. but most of us prefer to not go it alone…. even if it means compromise…. and still…. while compromising …. they continue to search for the one…………..

now this will complicate things if one is found …while one is compromising….. its messy…. and usually the single one…. will not recognize … the compromising one as the one…. because why would the other one compromise…. if the single one will not…. the lines will be drawn simply by this alone.

at least this is how i feel…. i know it is said there are so many fish in the sea…. but, like the disappearing marine life…. so are unique match ups that we yearn to find and connect with….

so we hang out…. with people… and soon enough these people want to establish lines control… and thats when i see the exit sign…heheheheh……. sorry …but if your’re not the one…………….. im not the one. ;)

and this should be respected because….. it keeps thing neat…. it can get messy…. when we know were will not ever get serious about someone… yet we still spend intimate time with them…. and always sooner…or later…..we plan our escape…. the whole time we were with that person… i know i am guilty of this…and i know many others…

so now, i just live with the faith…that …well maybe…. my fish will come swim by… and i will be just attentive enough to notice….

do we all know that song…”if you cant be, with the one you love, honey, love the one ur with” there might be a huge problem with that ..and the problem …is…………………. it is not love…..its just compromise…. cuz…well…. ur thinkin bout someone else constantly…and it seems that the more ur with the one ur with…. the more you want to be with the other….ahhhhh its a vicious cycle …

and now…. well Valentines day is rolling around ……… again….. does this… or does this not put undo pressure on the single????

yes…. it does….so here is my fix for the secret lover…. because “no one…loves nobody” and u know this man…..woman ;) ,,,

and dont get me wrong……….. there are those lucky ones… who do have the one… oh yes my friends…….. it does exist… but these are the ones …who take the risk…. dove in….didnt look back….. or to the side…… went with their hearts over their heads…

because……. lets all face it……………….. Nothing and i do mean Nothing……………. is better than the drug….. we call…..L U V ….
LOVE … US…… VIBRANTLY ;)

Openly….. unashamed….. just went for it… and it paid off……………big time….. the difference between a happy life… and a life in between happiness and misery……………. in other words … the roller coaster.

so…. here is for all the secret loves…. send a card…e card… leave a love letter….. for the one you love…. the very one…. no matter how scared you are…………….and sign ur name….. let em know its you…. because a secret admirer is soon forgotten…because we get bored trying to figure it out all the time

and maybe they love u too ;) but in any case…. at least they will know you love them….. and in this world of virtual friendships…and likes and dislikes…. now more than ever do we need to feel something that is real…and not virtual….. at least i do ;)

because that computer screen is not a real person…. and … it never will be….. no matter how long that screen saver stays on… it wont ever move….

or come near …………. or whisper that soft something in ur ear….
so this year….. my dear…..

i will tell you something that you always wanted to hear…. so come near…. here…. yes right here…..
where u been my dear? wasnt it April? no i will never forget….
and the more time passes…. the more i will sweat…. just to be near… or hear… ur voice… if love is my choice……..

than i choose you…. who? well…. cant tell say today…. but something tells me…………………. love is on the ……………way.

xoxo

Siri D

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shhhhh…. remember… to live with ur secrets….

Posted on February 1, 2012 by Siri D

Unless, we have an insane urge to purge constantly, most of us who reside on this planet…carry deep… personal secrets… and it is these secrets which control our daily lives, our nightly patterns.. our social interactions…. for some reason…. secrets… rule our lives…

Sometimes, when i am just waking… i like to take stalk of my secrets… in my case… they are deeply personal… a bit confusing… as to how i can feel the way i do about something, yet no one… not even my closest of friends in my circles know anything about them, you see, the topic is not taboo for them to speak of … the topic is taboo for me to speak of … and so it is never spoken… known…discussed…

oh sure… people try to guess at my thoughts… as to why i may do this or that… instead of this or that…. and i become most resistant towards those who would try to pry into my inner most thoughts… desires…. truths….. i truly believe, that unless i am willing to share this with someone. which would be rare indeed…. for humanity is not so secret savvy and or trustworthy when it comes to being the guardian of our most precious possessions…. secrets, memories, and heartfelt desires…. we hold them inside of us… like hidden treasure,

as we travel day to day through our own personal journeys…. i believe our daily lives are shaped by our secrets… for instance… we may judge new people who try to come into our lives by our secrets….some people call secrets closets…. but i prefer the word secret… for we are the guardians of our inner truths… not a closet where we can put them away and reach for them when we need them… no, in fact we hold these truths inside of us… no matter where we are or how we are …. wouldn’t it be nice to put down the burden of a secret in a closet, and just walk away from it, and take it out and play with it when we are strong enough… or able enough… no…’

a secret…. is always always a responsibility… and a burden i feel lucky, because, even though… i might have secrets… i am able to write, and express creatively what i might truly be feeling personally and therefore have some type of expression of the thing that lives in suppression…inside…. nothing hides…. we only think it is hidden..

for at every opportunity… . a nosy friend… or acquaintance will try to be an amateur head shrink in our life…. they will say … let me tell you whats wrong with you ” or… your problem is” or question your behavior in general…even though one is not doing anything illegal… or illicit…. one who might find pleasure in solitude, or the company of a pet over the company of a would be lover….

when people come into my life and try to be this would be head shrink (for those who see yourselves in these words) let me give my advice of the secret seeker….) there will never be anything as rewarding as seeking and finding ones own truths…. recognizing them, and living with them and or manifesting them in this world ….using them…. what ever we need to do to know our selves… to know our own personal truths, and really get real with who and what we are in this world…so that we may live more purposefully .

so … back to the amateur head shrinking friend… or better… acquaintance…

usually , or at least in my case…. if i am transitioning from one phase of my life… to a next… i will be focused on this intently… and for me … outside influence will only cloud my detailed vision… for their is none who can see as clearly as i do the vision and path God has put in my conscious…. it is my gift from god…. and i honor it… no matter how crazy… or weird … or strange…. or stupid it may seem to an outsider…. it is not theirs to judge.

when i am focused… i am still .. and usually keep socializing to a minimum…. for most of the time… when i am out socializing… i find my self not in the present of it… but wondering…. how can i excuse my self from this situation and go somewhere and write…or create… or walk … or jog…. in solitude… with my Bux…. and so, i am no good to a situation in most cases… i am not really there….

people will ask, why are you not dating? is that your husband? simply because i am standing next to a man…heheh…. ” I dont care if you are gay” “how old are you?” “where is your family from” “would you like to have dinner?” “can i call you” “lets go do this or that”

and of course…. it starts becoming the charlie brown syndrome. where the words are just mumbles … you know…when the adults speak in the charlie brown comics … wah wah wah wah wah …hehehe…. but i am being serious….

people get drowned out very quickly… my brain automatically does it when it senses communication that is on another wave length…it is almost a different language to me… now, dont think i am not grateful for invitations, and interest in my life… its just that …. most of the time…. the banter is mind numbing dribble…. for me any now… it is rooted in mundane thoughts and realities…. that are almost outdated within their own life… for the world is changing rapidly… and as i always say and said….

we can ignore it if we choose, but it does not mean it was not going to happen.

we all love to hear our selves talk, i am not innocent of this either…but… for the most part…. conversation…especially with new acquaintances… and or those that have unsuccessfully tried to break into our inner worlds …. the topics… are superficial at best… we may speak of politics…. but the deeper issue here is that no matter how emotionally engaged and or distracted we become with a process… the outcome at this point is fixed… and we see before a circus… and we get involved believing we can affect it…

for truly have we not all chosen a side? yes…. we have…. if we are adults of a certain age…we have most definitely chosen a side… and we may or may not voice this but, we have chosen…. so in effect…. it is done….

now maybe those who would vote republican…. still have not decided on their candidates…. but this is the limit to their choice…which one will they choose…. none, being any different from the other…. they are all politicians…. they move in the same pack… the only difference is who can sway their house, and congress to get done what their agenda is the quickest… its all politics… and politics were never meant to be for the people…. only to govern the country…. with its rules and regulations… enforce this…. and make a lil doe ray meeee… now, if this is your purpose in life….. then this is a great time to be alive!!!!

I guess it is all a great time to be alive…good or bad… its all experience….. it is through grace that we learn to roll with it… ride the wave…. but lets get back to the secrets… as usual… i have taken a side street into unending topic tangent called “politics”

the point was, even this is done in secret, our family might be republican…. and when we walk into the polling place to cast our vote … behind the little curtain…. we secretly vote democrat…. or independent…. or what ever… or vice versa….. feeling a tinge of guilt… maybe a little bit of stick it to the maniosis …heheh …. what ever we feel we have purged a secret….

for it is not just animals that run in packs…. oh no…. human is a pack animal as well…. the repubs the dems…. the fems, cops…. teachers…. actors, musicians, gays….straights…… girls … boys…… rich… poor….. intellectual…. jocks….. 9-5 ers…. 99 ers…. 1 per centers….. you name it…. we run in packs… and we decide in packs…. l and when one strays from the pack…

the pack will turn and burn the rebel….. this and only this …. is why we keep our secrets…. for Romeo…. loved Juliet…. but their packs were different….. and so it is … and so history repeats itself…. over and over and over….

until the devastating truth is revealed….. we are all not so different…. in fact, we are more the same then we are different … even in the plant and animal kingdom…. we all need water…. love….air ….. sun….. food…. and comfort to live….

we all protect our life… our children… our family friends…. from harm or harshness…. we are all deserving of kindness…loyalty…happiness… truth…..

and most of all …. all of us can be hurt, scared, shamed…. devastated…. all of us… plant …animal…. human…..

and animals have been known to keep secrets…. bugs keep secrets…. trees…. rocks…. we all keep secrets….

why am i writing about secrets….. well… if i told you…. would it be a secret????

maybe i am in love…. and one will never know… or see…. or experience my deepest desire….. it does not mean … i would go out and live a life of compromise… and entangle with someone i am not in love with….

in some ways…. i am a purist…. and i see too many unhappy people in relationships they got into out of fear of loneliness….and peer pressure to do the right thing…..

this has never been my issue…. i dont care what other people think of my status as far as being single …. or married… or co habitating… or hanging out with…. this has always been my gift…. i do what i like…… its my life… and opinions…. well we all know what they say about opinions….. everyone has them…. heheheh…….

the buddah would not have been the buddah had he caved into peer pressure to be a king… husband… a father…. there is great sacrifice in following the compass of our heart…. and rest assured… it wont come without criticism and mostly from those that would be closest in our lives…. for some reason they feel they have an entitlement to tell you and shape your path…. but this is not true….

we are all born of God, and we are only Gods children …. with guardians… in our earliest part of life…. and these are only guardians…. not people to cling to our whole lives… as most people do….

you know, the fourty year old who has to get his mothers permission still…. that is so sad….. or the fifty year old or thirty year old…..at what point are we emancipated from the opinions of others?

at what point do we become fully functioning adults making some type of contribution to the greater world… not just our own inner circle…..

i was listening to a woman on the radio … speak of her father…. and that she was angry with him… and she started crying… and he was well into his 90′s … and she was in her 60′s, and she was sobbing and carrying on as if she was a teenager…and the emotional relationship between them had not matured…. i listened with compassion… but i could not help but to think…. this condition has stunted and shaped her whole life…. that she could never have become what her secrets are…because her actions are so closely guided by what her father thinks… not her own inner truth….. and i thought…. how sad…

and somehow…. i felt that she thought …everyone is like this…. and or should be like this…. we should all hold onto our parents and not grow up and become functioning… thinking …. independent adults…. i dont know… i thought …. this is really scary…. imagine if she was married…. how her husband would feel,, her children…. and we learn to keep our secrets….

some times a secret will be right in your face…. by the way we might live in solitude…. in quiet happiness…. flowing from phase to phase… or simply diggin in like a fox in a hole….. only coming up for air when we really have to…..

in this world…. thats not such a bad idea…. to keep our secrets…. hold them sacred …

in a world where we constantly feel the need to post our status… which by the way is never really the status… it is what we want you to believe about us in that moment…. but still …. do i really need you to know my status??? no i dont….

this is my status…. my privacy….. and in fact… as i am not a face book member… and the more intrusive it becomes…. the more i dont like it…..

did you know, government officers use face book twitter…and all other social media to monitor your behavior??? so it can be determined whether you are friendly to the state…. or an enemy???? yes it is getting this way… more and more ….

if you dont believe it …. just read the news…. a couple of British people were deported as soon as they got to america for tweeting…they were going to party and mess a couple things up here in america…. they were in their early 20′s and i hardly think they meant it….

but this is not the issue… the issue is…they and we are being monitored … our every word…. even these words i write right now….

so our secrets have become and even more precious commodity given the state of the facebook generation…. exposing their every thought …good bad or indifferent…. in some desperate attempt … i guess to feel important????

admired… loved….. approved of … “liked”???? for myself…. i prefer to stay sovereign…. keep my options open…. and my thoughts and personal feelings…somewhat private…. not that i have illicit thoughts…. no not at all… its just that they are my private property … in a world where nothing is private… everyone exposes every moment…. more than i want to know …its called TMI … too much mundane information….

To go inside…. feel who we are… and be comfortable with this…. carefully express and share the goodness and those things which we can share with humanity…and make a difference….. such as secrets to happiness…. to peace…… eating certain things cause certain things… things like this …things we can share…. and offer as gifts to our fellow humans….

i prefer this …to sharing how many times a day one can change their underwear…. it is probably why … i dont do social networking….

i guess…. i am not that social…heheheh…… and i prefer my privacy… not to mention…. i dont feel like giving facebook my personal content …which by the way is the reason people go there…. and they in turn own it…. monetize off of it…. and make billions out of your personal life… and you give it away freely……

no…. if i am going to expose my ass… or you expose your ass…. wouldnt you like to be the one making the billions???? since it is your life that is whats is intersting….it is your content people are enjoying…. and …face book puts ads on your personal page…peddling everything from insurance to religion…depending on the highest paying client… and they take all the money and never give you a dime…. hmmmmm

do you like that???? no??? how about the fact that you are being monitored… your every word…. heartbreak…drunken episode … like that??? even employers are now checking out your page to check your character… weird …. huh????

no, i think… once again… i am going to cut myself from the pack here…. and go my own way…. like a lone wolf…. and howl right here… on siridyal.com

the moon…she listens to me…. she is my grand mother…. my greatest friend…. our beautiful satellite … remember her…. the moon… the stars… the constellations… the very way we found ourselves here in America…. guided by the stars…. remember the trees, the water falls…. the flower the wild flower???? oh yes…. this is my pack… we hang everyday…..

my secrets??? ah yes…. my secrets…. they are with me eveyday….. perhaps you will find my secrets in the lines between in my lyrics… my blogs…. my actions…. but secrets are not meant to be everyday banter or chatter….. at least not mine….

big brother will simply have to make due with my blogs … my songs…. and anything else i might make public… for my private life is my treasure… and one without measure… its the only true property we can still own…. and protect…. without copyright infringement…

because we have chose to keep the secret…. now is the time for for me to keep my secrets… perhaps a little bit down the road…. i may expose them…. but for now…. i will keep them… protect them…. and build my world and unveil it…when it is fully formed….

what is your secret.??? perhaps your secret is reading this blog….. it doesnt matter…. i will never tell … nor do i even know if you do.. unless you make a comments or register with my blog…..

i love my secret readers… i love you all….. keep your secrets … protect your truth… your purpose…. pursue it with every breath and ounce of life you have in your physical body….

build your world from the inside out…. not the outside in….. manifest…. and bear fruit….
its why you are here…

dont be afraid of who you are… and mostly dont be afraid to fail… for their is no success without failure… know this…. understand this….

and build your life…. keeping in mind… the greater world we live in today…and all action will create a reaction in this world…. be conscious of your consumption… what u put into ur self…. and what you put out….

lets try not to be habitual ritual beings… meaning do everything our parents did or do…. this is not the world they grew up in…and the rules are significantly different now….

have 2 or 3 kids…. is not a good idea anymore…. not unless were talking about eugenics… and most are not.

build your life, and your kingdom before your start a family….. it is expensive to have children… remember this, they need all your love and attention… so if you have them… prepare to sacrifice your own personal dreams…. until they are grown….

love yourself…. just love yourself….bless yourself…. do nice things for others…. strangers… and feel how good it feels to do this….

the word is changed… and still in the months to come… even more… and their will be more chaos… and huge change to our planet… be still and watch the destruction with quiet detachment…. know…that a new and better day is coming…

and that we will all be happy and live purposefully once again…. just a few more huge bumps in the road to ride….

until then …. just be there… dont judge…. or point a finger…. remember… we are all in this together…

and in your solitude…. remember your secrets….. they are your legacy… your treasure of true humanity :)

xoxo

Siri Dyal

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surrender to the obvious.

Posted on January 29, 2012 by Siri D

….. she received the cryptic messages…every
one… in fact… she had noticed them with great attention for years…. but … somewhere along the third and fourth year… she realized… this is repetitive…. dull… not sharp … or even witty… and now bordering on annoying… she read them any way … perhaps … out of habit.

she did not know or remember him anymore… his touch… the way his warm soft skin felt against hers… the tenderness in his touch… no… this was but an intellectual memory… the sense of it…. was long gone…. and she thought… “good” for there is nothing lasting in things that dont last… there is no point in trying to recapture a moment in the past….” and she hoped… in his efforts to keep himself in her mind…..would subside in the rough cold skin of another.

in her confidence she knew… there is no skin like my skin…. and there is no sin…like my sin… with a mirthful eye she watched all his castles crash horribly to the ground… only for him to scramble in the sand…. and it delighted her… for as he was building he would always throw rocks… big…. hard…. sharp rocks…. not only this…but he would spend precious resource to have those who would be hired for such duty… to help him propel these rather large sharp objects….

“funny” she thought…. doesn’t he know….” the bigger the rock…. the easier to see and therefore dodge….silly rabbit…or rat…. trix are for kids….

and this is a grown folks playing field… thought you knew lil sprout…. obviously… only kids can give you the clout that you are looking for ….

they laughed and laughed…but they aint laughin no more.

oh … oops…. i am sorry …. i was out in the real world…forgot to check my trash bin… for the latest waste of your time……………

sublime, senses, warmth of his touch … real … of course… never play games with such.

jack and jill did go up that hill… they fetched that pail of water…

jack fell down…. lost his crown… and jill…went on to splendor.

we changed the story … for contemporary times…. the past is gone…but we still like to rhyme…. now..i wonder…. is that rare orange asunder…. or just under…. or over… par.

take ur brain out that jar… the one…that told you … u are so far … ahead above all the rest… that was a test… and u failed…miserably…. terribly… shameful…yes…
but…dont cop a plea…. when there is no offering

live with it… deal with it…l been around… not much when it comes to love…except… the real thing… all the rest… nothing more than a fling.

bling bling bling…. just do yo thing… life is but a dream… or a nightmare…depending on where …. or what side of the playing field ur on…

u on the field of dreams…. where the heart pulls the strings….

or u in ur head…. news flash… the head is dead….. so sorry fred.

lifetimes i can play…wait…. if it aint right… then no need to escape… just close the gate… its way toooo late…. to apologize.

means nothing…especially in virtual reality…. means nothing to me…. get it out of my head… writing this blog will do… tomorrow…. touch something real… for sure… you have to know my deal…. stopped believing…. a long time ago.

not gonna say ur a joke…. just a lil green .. when it comes to handlin the scene… the truth …. the most precious gift…

took it to ur head… one more time… the head is dead.

now… its a joke… between u and me… a moat…. even if you had a forty foot rope…. you couldnt reach me…. teach me…. i am already schooled… any thing for you… is a feast for fools…. and i am not hungry for a mutha fuckin tool. yeah thats what i think of you

the princess of great mercy and compassion… yes… its my fashion… but i gots ta keep it real…. and i always go for what i feel…

so…that being said… when is the last time ur letters been read…. seen the tracks of my tread… years i think… and you still skate the rink…same circle …same game… so tired… so lame….

straighten ur frame… stand up for something other than a game… a joke … man… you even make me not wanna smoke….. and thats not a lie…. your my anti high….

so why come nigh????

only a fool … would come around for you…. especially when u do what u do… who…. who…has any self esteem…would climb into your maniacal dream.????

he say’s he stay positive… make me laugh… well that is positive…

oh so its just the minion who do the neg… who beg… who betray … grow up brotha… learn anotha way…

cryptic bullshit….i am not buying…or even trying to understand… waste ur time… its ur time to squander…wander… in the desert for years…

already shed enough tears… cry a lake, a river, never will i shiver…

i feel good…and strong… gave all the day long… truth…love…. a lil insanity… and as they say…. in love… there is always license for this…. and it was bliss to feel the way i felt ..

dove in so deep… so deep said yes when he knelt….. oh shit… that was my dream…never mind…. the reality…was so unkind… no need to rewind…

i dont want it anymore.

so happy i am beyond that shore…. all i see is the ocean floor… and its deep so deep
want to dive in…. and i am not too weak….

this week is the week … the peak of the bleak… and undone…unsung… the bell will never be rung…. stop waiting….

find your rare citrus and get to betraying… its what you do and we all are a cog… your cog is to flog… and kick down the dog…

dont be ashamed that your heart is in pain… recognize ur size in the purest of eyes…. you are a child… mild … and tempered…. frail and fettered…

cant help but to love u like a babe…. in the heat of the sun…give u some shade

in the cold of the winter hold you tight…. mama…says its gonna be allllll right….

but dont try to be my man… ur a babe in my hand…. i will do what i can… to help you grow … let u know… its okay to give love… just for the sake of love….

no more hurt…no more pain…. love who you are … and dont refrain… to express yourself… without fear of rejection…. for like the babe in my arms…

you get a mothers affection… my kisses… confection….

but only like a mother to a babe….. when u grow up …. you will know…

how to love… and how to show….. but for now….. just relax and enjoy

a mothers love…. and a brand new ……………………….toy.

oh boy.

xoxo

Siri Dyal

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HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!! DRAGON YEAR!!! GET READY FOR THE FIREWORKS BABIES ;)

Posted on January 23, 2012 by Siri D

Now, normally i try to stay neutral when it comes to politics, because it is rude to speak of such topics as politics … religion…. things of this nature where we make choices in our lives, and ultimately these choices must be respected by everyone…even if they do not agree….. but today, i received an email, and it was so heinous in nature … that it boiled my blood…. insensitive… rude…. and down right despicable…

the message was hidden in a popular childhood fable about the Ant, and the Grasshopper…. we all know the story…. “oh the world owes me a livin” sings the grasshopper, as he watches the ants toil through the summer heat, the grasshopper sings, and ignores the hard working ant…. come winter…. the grasshopper is cold….. without food and shelter…. while the ant who worked all summer long… is down in their warm cave with food and water, and all the comforts to last the winter long ;) now….

i loved that story when i was a kid, and i loved the record, i would play it over and over…because the book came with the record……

now, the email i received today twisted the story… into the grasshopper being a democrat… and the ants being republicans….. and instead of the grasshopper dying he held a press conference… to ask why the ants had everything … and he has nothing and they should share…. the lawyers became involved… Oprah Winfrey, Barack Obama blamed , all the past republicans… and evicted the poor hard working ants and let the grasshopper occupy the place where he subsequently died of a drug overdose…..

now, this may not offend you, but let me be clear here, i am not a Democrat, I am an Independent, this being said…. first lets look at the obvious evils in this campaign using children stories to disseminate hate…. this is a no no…. i am sure we can all agree there are many with child like intellects who are adults and are not able to decipher the difference between a story and actual truth… obviously this was designed to trick the not so strong minded into thinking they were getting the raw end of the deal by asking for what they deserve.

Now, in last nights blog, i let you know, i am not part of the occupy movement, this is not my function here on Earth, my cog is of a different nature, and at the same time i respect the peoples ability to rally … to speak out….. say no more” i love this about the American process…. i get it…. first of all most of the occupiers are working class people, some employed some not…and there are always fringes …. however… the majority is the working class…

now, let us understand what happened here, as so many just do not understand the plight…. wage increase according to profit increase stopped sometime in the early 70′s, and has not resumed since..this is factual, and actual. Credit also started around the same time to extend to the working class so they could join in and have a slice of the good life… a home… a job…. medical care…so on and so forth….

but …. as the cost of living rose…. the profit margins rose, because more and more Americans had to work more hours to cover the cost of living … to pay for their homes with exaggerated interest rates… and god forbid, we get sick…for then…we will lose it all… and the profit margins rose for the corporations and the top one percent of those holding those positions.. in essence… someone sitting in a desk on top of all the labor…. doing little to nothing… more than likely … a nepotistic relationship, or Alum …. to keep the money in the family. They Collect millions, while the laborers, or energy pushers…. live and subsist on what is now peanuts by today’s standard of living. This is what the 99 per centers are fighting against…. this is their plea……

and it started happening in the 70′s this is where the greed curve grew exponentially. I guess the straw to the camels back is when a average middle class family who hold down 2 jobs a piece to support their families….lose their homes and their life savings over pennies really…. just pennies…. this has collapsed the American economy…. and what this is … is GREED.

I bet you already knew, that when a bank forecloses oh someones home, the federal government gives the bank the full value of the home …. FDIC INSURED…… so… not only does the bank get all the money that was put into the property…. when they kick you out of your home… the federal government pays the whole cost of the foreclosed property to the bank, sounds like a good reason for the bank to robo sign…and get the foreclosure going… huh???? who loses???? only the hard working man or woman…. and it was only a matter of time before the fuse hit the anger bomb…

Now i am not saying all rich people are non compassionate, and i am not saying all victims of this current state of events are hard workers… no… i am not….

i am simply saying… the balance does not exist …. with taxes…. interest rates, the more money you have, the cheaper everyday life is for you…. i am not sure this is the right way to have a healthy society, and perhaps….. no one really cares, save for those who are innocent hard working victims…. and there are many….

Our band wrote “Need 2 Feed ” in 2004….. to our observation it was at its apex then, but it took time for it to trickle to the masses for them to wake up and make a call to action…. but i dont know if the call is accurate, organized, or even possible to effect change….. the system is deeply corrupted all the way to the top….. yes….. all the way to the top… society now, is politics…. pure and simple….

if your a member of congress or even a congressional aid, it is legal to inside trade…. so you see….the system is not set up for fair labor and trade practices… it is set up to be elitist, and make room for collateral damage…. and as Bill Gates says…. lower the population by 15% this is what the elite want.

well fortunately, they will get what they want, but not how they wanted it, and it will be indiscriminate to wealth, age, beauty, gender, religion, culture, it will come and level the playing field…

most do not believe, but help is on the way. ;)

You dont think they are going to get away with all of this behavior and sail into the sunset do you???? never fear my loves, never fear….. for the great cleansing is upon us…. ready your selves with optimism, hope, confidence….. joy, laughter…. this will really throw them off…. they will say ” hey…. why are those people smiling… laughing…. loving” ” they should be miserable…. they have no money…no home…. those lazy drug addicts … let em suffer and die”

well, you just smile, cuz you know something they dont…. because their arrogance will be their last supper to sup upon……. for most of the wealthy have forgotten some very strong truths….
without the labor, their production will not get done… from assembly to shipment…. we are all one…. and everyone deserves a fair wage for their contribution to that organizations prosperity… pure and simple…

Let us remember how this great nation became so great and wealthy…. off of the free labor of slaves, and immigrant workers …. while the “massa” sat in the house away from the sweltering heat… and blistering cold…. slaves toiled the land….bringing us the first cash crop of America which made us wealthy….what was that crop???? TOBACCO.

Since this time, wealth has been handed down generation to generation, with some breaking through, to achieve the American dream, but most, labor, not slave labor, we just send those jobs out to third world countries now ;)

There was a time in this country when the dream was still the dream and achieving it was within reach, but now, with the wealth totem the way it is in place…. it will be damn near impossible… this is because the totem needs to be in place for the greatest of wealth to be this way, it can not be spread around in a balanced healthy way if the super wealthy want to stay super wealthy… so there must be some form of slavery and oppression for the current state of our affairs to stay this way. or just call it…. the “status Quo”

Have you ever read the book…. “behold a pale horse” if not…. try to find a copy…. and read it… this was all organized and executed long ago… with the “bankers” being on the top of the totem…

funny how they used to be little institutions that held our hard earned money… well…. now…. they control it and how they do!!!

whether we like it or not…. and now, a lot do not!!! hehehe …. well we have to look at the status quo with some type of mirth…dont you think? for it will not last….

things change…just like that Kundun”

In truth….it is all illusion… power….wealth… poverty…health…sickness…. its all an illusion….and we are here to learn this…and ultimately to break free from the cycle of death and rebirth… over and over again we make the same mistakes, take the wrong paths, make terrible life changing decisions, over and over, and then there comes those times…when the right path is fought for against all odds..and it is achieved….. history is made, and world changes….. this … and this alone should teach us of our greatness and what we can achieve when we dare to execute our dreams…. not just dream…but actually put cause to action…

No one said it would be easy…. and why should it be??? we want to feel how hard we had to work to achieve…yes??!!! yes!!! so we feel deserving of our victories… cherish and nurture them ..because we remember how hard we fought for them.

The world will change whether we effect it or not…. it is just time … and we can be an active part of it…. or we can put our heads in the sand… and swallow another year of political war… and demoralizing by those that seek to divide…. for to conquer… one must divide…. we are great in numbers…. weak alone….

so let us unite…. not in a negative posture..but rather a positive posture…first to understand our greatness and how much our contribution does mean to this world…. it means so very much… we contribute to everything in this world…and every uber wealthy individual is not there by their own deeds rather by our support and nourishment to their establishments.. we consume, produce, and promote for them….. for free… hehehe… isnt that funny…. do you really need 100 pair of tennis shoes, boots, purses, jackets, ??? no, but someone needs you to buy them so they can be wealthy… and you can appear to be wealthy so you can be accepted so you can eventually have sex…heheh…sorry but it does boil down like that in its most distilled truth.

do you need ten cars??? 5 houses??? 300 pair of jeans??? rethink what you are saying…. when we live this way,, as needless consumption….. everyone wants to be rich…look rich …act rich…. look down… on those who are not rich…. but in their hearts…. when they look in the mirror…. they know its a fraud…. a sham…. a farce…… because the truth of our oneness…. is absolute.

many know i am not a christian, i am a seeker of truths in all forms…so i do not subscribe to any one religion … there are great lessons from all of them, and i live by and pick and choose from the best of each….

in these American election times… i find it so amusing that politics always leans on religion…. i am a christian, he is a mormon, he is a jew, he is a muslim…..and this will come mostly from the republican or conservative sect…. and i have yet to find a non wealthy republican politician….. and so i remember this bible verse…. it always was so powerful to me as a child and perhaps it truly shaped my mind in this world…. and it reads, ” It is easier for a camel to pass through the eye of a needle, than for a wealthy man to enter the kingdom of Heaven” hmmmmmmm …..

now like i said, i am not the one going around saying i am a christian, but i do love some of the truths of the word…. but if i was a christian, republlican politician…. i would be awfully worried about my ticket to heaven …heheheh …………………… just saying

something to ponder…

have a beautiful day, and a wonderful wonderful Happy Chinese New Year

I love you all…..even you wealthy ones :) hehehe

xoxo

Siri Dyal

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in the quiet desperation….unplug… and plug into the source of love…

Posted on January 23, 2012 by Siri D

do you plug into something, someone, to feel less desperate..those moments when its just you…and your thoughts… your actions, the sum of your past… adding up to your present? what do you plug into when you are in a quiet desperation….

Siri? you say…. what is a quiet desperation… isnt it loud… crazy… cracked and broken? what is desperation????

well… my friend…. desperation is the state of the planet Earth…right here…………right now.

and since we are all connected to the Atma…you know it… no matter how you’re fixed financially, single…. married…. serial co habitator on your hundredth and fiftieth live in love that you promise to marry…but, know… u never will ;)

no matter where your at… the sense of nothingness…. and mediocrity … and pointless ness is ever consuming our thoughts .. our dreams… our hearts…. our actions…. in effect…

in short… in long….. we are numb… and the taste is dull….

even when we achieve a level of success we have been working for long and hard…. when we get there….some are happy for us… and some wish we could not achieve what we finally achieved….

by now, we have all seen how vain and pointless fame, and fortune are… it brings no more happiness to us…. and if there is any truth in the up coming cataclysms…. not even money can save us….

we will be re inventing our humanity…. and i for one…. do not think this is such a bad thing..

so i think , and of course .. this is just my opinion…. unplugging from the superficial aspects of life… and just send one plug…. into the source… and all of your everything will be fulfilled… how do we do it???

start with the little things…. facebook, what is that? do you really care that someone just had a spaghetti dinner and is turning in? well if your a stalker… then probably yes… heheh… but for most of us… the addiction is just that addiction… meaningless… and we waste our precious time and attention on things that mean nothing…

these are not our real friends… we are not fortified spiritually by these connections… only superficially gratified that we might have so many people who want to sell their ideas to us… or… ask us to be their fans… and like them…. why oh why do we seek such approval…. without approving our own selves our own lives…. is it out of duty…. out of impulse… lack of self esteem? what is it in us… that cannot journey our own magnificent lives … be so interested in who we are ..and interested in bringing out the best of who we are…

we keep on looking outside…. in so many things…. money…. status…. sex…. food….. drugs…. what is it????

here is a quick quiz to see if you live your life from your own center… or if you live your life…. by what others expect of you…

when you go out… is it because your want to? or your friends expect you to?

is your girlfriend or boyfriend someone your friends and family all like ? perhaps your sister or brother chose them for you… they’re cool…but you know you will never fall in love…

are you afraid to step out for what is right? in your own life… that is …what ever your personal right is …. are you afraid to live your life in truth…light…. be open…. and honest and have what you want in your life… and what you dont want…. leave it behind…

or do you continue to live under the same roof with something that defines you as living a lie. work at a job that gives no nourishment to your soul… only gives a pay check…and usually one… that isnt making you happy…….

well if you answered yes to any of those questions…. you need to unplug… and plug into your righteousness… your truth… your simplicity… personally i dont need a million friends …. one true ..good one will do…

yes..i love to love and give love to many… but a tried and true friendship is rare indeed…. and i suspect… i wont find one on face book ;)

isnt it nice to just sit underneath the stars with someone… or in front of a fireplace…. and just have a great old fashioned face to face conversation…and look into their eyes…and feel their excitement… and share and pontificate… and then go home and have a great nights sleep…. because you just had a great time with a good friend… and they will be there for you… no matter what …and you know this…. most of all you trust this.

and you sleep well..and life has purpose… because you have purpose…you make someone happy …and you share yourself… unselfishly…. not to get something in return… youre there … just to give…. just to serve… …. the time will come when they have the same chance to serve you…. it always comes around ….

we plug into things on the outside of us… to fulfill our needs…. imagine urself unplugging urself pulling the plug on all exterior…except for the one truth in our lives…. our creativity… our God center…. our truth… what ever that truth is………..without judgement … for everything is valuable in this world…..

it either teaches us…. or we teach it…. it is an inescapable cycle…
even beyond this world…. we evolve and evolve and evolve…

we seek….the unknowable… something we can never quite know… however…we can achieve glimpses..but we can never know the unknowable…. for then it would be known….

and the truth is … as long as you have breath in your body… you are plugged in to this great unknowable source…the source of all .. the source of love….

but we have so many other plugs…. so many meaningless plugs…. useless… out of habit plugs…. its not easy… i know…

but the path of truth in this world of convulsion will not be an easy one… for it is set up to ensnare and entrap as many as it can… to hold their souls in eternal darkness and confusion..

your soul, your light, your beingness, the whole of who you really are … is so precious ….. so valuable….. so priceless…. and even as i write it… i am sure … u dont believe it, because you have been conditioned to think you are nothing but a battery….

work… pay your bills, eat convenient, corporate food, take meds, pay your taxes…. die… and let your family pay the rest…

do not think… do not question….

i love the occupy movement…. and i am waiting for them to have organization in their there movement… in their process… for it to make sense in the way things need to be to make progress… not just temporary chaos… and rattling….

for when cause and effect have no definable connection it is chaos.

and unorganized chaos… will eventually fizzle into a memory… nothing more…

for real change… we must make real stands…. not reactionary displays of rebellion…

there is no end to what the people could do if we organized for real… and not in an angry posture… for we can not blame the world for where it is…. we participated in the making of this world we can not subtract ourselves and place blame on those who would take opportunity on our kindness… our generosity…

truly… they suffer, and will suffer, but the point is… they are still a part of us… we are still one… to look upon others as separate from ourselves…. is delusion…if we cannot see god in all… we cannot see god ………..at all…and this is where we must start…and stop….

unplug…. and leave one plug … only to the source…. that we might… be servants to those that need us… examples for those that are just coming up in this world….

that we be the change we wish to see…. not an angry mob…screaming for change… this will never do…. never…

Martin Luther King protested peacefully… and effected great change…. we must learn from our greatest leaders…..

we are all in the quiet desperation… we bite our nails, whether literal or metaphorical … keeping us in the past in the future… but never in the present… the gift of now…

unplug…. realize… you are everything… now… whole …. not separate from the source… infinite in true nature…

the comings and goings of society will never change who we are …. only that we allow ourselves to become emotionally attached to the ups and downs… the bitter and the sweet…

but we can unplug…. we can realize… ascend…. graduate…elevate…. live in joy… and peace….
knowing… its all a part of a bigger picture… that we dont have to become so personally involved in the drama…

back away…. detach….. allow your qualities of peace… and bliss… and joy to rise to the surface of your being….. revel in this…. marvel in this…. and from here it will grow…

and know…. it goes on and on and on…

for this is why we were in such a hurry… yes???

someone told us… we only had this amount of time to do this and that achieve this and that… make our mark… be a king… a queen… and then die….

well i have news for you…. you have infinity to invent yourself… here or in other worlds…. what and who your are goes on and on and on…. you evolve endlessly…

enjoy your life…. be in the moment… and only the moment make it relevant…. let nothing else come into it… that is not uplifting your mind… your heart…. your soul…

be the guardian of your life… if something isnt right in your life… subtract yourself from the influence and or the entanglement… set yourself free…for you are the only one who can

see others as yourself… really discipline yourself in all your thoughts…
and soon…. the quiet desperation will be a forgotten you… not even a thought…

for you are here to flourish…bloom… and be…. everything opulent and divine that you were born as ….. not to be….

for……………….you already R.

i love u so

xoxo

Siri Dyal

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Posted on January 7, 2012 by Siri D

so many words… regard them like turds……….flush em. period…. for talk without walk is in vain….shame on those who play this game.

fool me once………ye……………..maybe even a few times … might not be that smart…for i came with a heart…bigger than earth allowed …smuggled ….snuggled with synthetic fabrication of what might have been something real…now…. there is nothing to feel…words…flush them like turds.

still learning this field..came factory with a shield… though…requested to be able to feel…. so i could know… then……………….. unknow.

are we talking politics…. okay………………… its a joke…. politics… is money……………money is power………………….. power is illusion….

however….entangle in all the good while you can…………… there really is an abundance of it.
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there is a light heartedness to the moment……why………… i cant tell you…. something in the way it is here right now…tangible……………perhaps…………edible….we willsee.

you are here… there is nothing that you cannot handle … surmount… conquer… its all up to you…. you were born with the ability…intelligence…and strength to be great…all you have to do it claim it…

but down try to own it………… like all power structures that rely on outside support… will eventually fall…. no matter how great…no matter how small… so its best to not try to control…only flow in the upward tandem momentum….and realize… one……………… is the loneliest number. for even the yogi is in divine yoga with the supreme being… understanding the ultimate quest for knowledge and truth………

we can never be alone.

and if a part of us is manifest…than of course and obviously the counter part of us is manifest…for all is in existence in balance… it is the only way the universe can be…. so never fear…. only realize…

if we push that part of us away… the part that yearns…we deny ourselves that part of ourselves….. this is where depression…and despair come into our lives… and the catch is this

we must heal ourselves…. by growing….and reaching… for the sun… the one…. the place where life began..begun…. heart of the sun…. redundant…. i know…

but we did not get it the first time round.

you think the spoon is bending…when it is you who are at long last bending not breaking…..

flexibility is so much better than rigidity.

i have not come here to preach…or presume to teach…. i am a student… of this world….and so far…. i dare not speak…. only watch… for still i am in this stage…

the masses are in rage… been let out of a cage….no one can gage…. where they will end up

in my mind… i thought it was about time… the climate …sublime….. for a huge change.

is it too late… no need to speculate…. just live…give…. thrive…come alive…. smile, instead of frown…. embrace instead of deny……. leap of faith…. give it a try… if there is an offer

not all will recieve… most will retreat… to habit…. escapism…. and this is fine… for a numb existence only a cataclysm can wake it up… be careful what we ask for…. you are divine…whether you know it or not…believe it or not…. you wish…. as powerful as a thought…. choose well… choose wisely

he thought he could just shake the etch a sketch and he could start the painting over… yes… you can….

but you have to start everything over with new everything…. one cannot bring the past back into the future pic…when one has chose a path…..proceed to the checkout stand… and pay your dues on that screen….

every thing…. is everything….. and sometimes life is a dream…and sometimes…. we are wide awake….

what is inside of you… that wants to be born….

now………….. is the time to birth it… a still born is never happiness….

and if you have the freedom and or the chance to make it happen……………. do it…create it….. but… only by your will …………… you cannot will another to ur life… on direct your ownpath.

i ve learned some interesting things while i have been human…and american…and woman…and ethnic… many things i have learned….some fun…some not so fun… all very very important…

and one thing i have learned is to keep it moving… dont get comfy or content… oh i am sorry… but this is not the life for this posture……this is the life to keep on my toes…
keep it in check… cross my t”s and dot my eyes…

i am not saying dont relax… have good times…spa…. have affectionate relations…so on and so forth… i am saying… to get in a rut….and start collecting dust…and must…. and burrow into some box on the planet…. nope…be free….

any way…. thats me….

as always

im Siri D.

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Happy 2012 From Siri D…. N…….. BuckStarr

Posted on January 3, 2012 by Siri D

Now, what is it that we want to talk about today??? its 2012… what are your plans??? same ol…same ol….. not recommended….rather…. lets get a lil frivolous… heheh…. well…that is just me…

so many people want to debate the impending apocalypse…. why??? if you dont believe it… than just keep on doing what ur doing…. why even acknowledge the preposterous???? heheheh…. if you are kind of interested, let me make a few suggestions so one can study the empirical evidence… web bot predictors 2012 a brand new prediction method just discovered, Hopi Indian prophecy… and the Georgia Guide stones…just to name a very few…

in any case…. the show must go on…yes??? yes…. we are moving our record to the big studio to finish by this spring, it may be welcomed by the planet, and it may well be ignored…. “art makes no excuses or apologies” it is what it is… opinions must be left in the front office …under………… who gives a what” heheheh…………………………. no but reallly, if it resonates with you great!!! if not… well it does not…. and the point is………….. huh? yes, i always say, save it for something or someone who cares………

we do what we do… in service…. not for approval or disapproval, it is the fruit of our nature our birth, what ever we are…we are….. no need to squeeze into someone else’s idea of who we are …

that has always made me curious… why do people so often seek approval from outside sources??? like they know us better than we know ourselves…. ones opinion of my life, and how i live it…. well .. unless i am in an intimate relation with u….. i really dont care…. take notes sucka……………… heheheh…

oh … the arrogance of that girl” uh no…. really??? the arrogance of someone trying to impose their opinion into my world, my life, my stylo, my flo…..if ya dont know…well …now ya know ;) …

there once was a boy, who said he was a man, he said mam, i said mam? do u know who i am? not a mam… or a mister…. not a cut…or a blister…. not even a drifter…

a seer a seeker…. mayb even a ner do well….. but heaven or hell…. just a voyeur for a spell…. live to tell…. live to tell.

remember …. remember … when it all seemed so clear…. live in the moment…. no time to fear…. only time to enjoy…. indulge…. soak up and divulge… the days splendor…. the love un ender….

the words so tender, as they flow through my mind…. from the heavens to the grind…. i can never forget… the spell of life….

i wanted to care, but then i remembered… it did not matter… it was all a game…and at that…super lame….. just another who tried to tame…. and came up insane…. whose to blame???

no one told him to lose his marbles… he tossed them without a care… with a stare…maybe more like a glare…from the good I he tried to spy…. but what they didnt know…they only saw …what i wanted to show…. what a blow…and moby told them so.

better late… than never…………. i suppose… this is how it goes.

in the meantime…this just in…. having a ball…. partying in Nepal…. samedi…. strong…dance with the unmanifest…into the manifest…o…… come on…. you really didnt get side tracked off of all the distracting factors of politics did you???

dont get spun… or spin…. yep…time to dig in…to the truth…. do you remember…. no, dont worry we dont have to be clever, only clear, and intentional…. on the truth…with out blame…or shame…or even disdain….. we come again…and again.

now, i will spend much time with you this year…. and those who are close, will definitely hear, my voice… my song…. my message…will be strong…. not for the weak… or conditioned… arrogant …or commissioned to do harm… to the extension of the arm,

He was doing so well in the world… had spoken of the world at his feet… only to see… he was knee high to an ant…. he woke up during a chant…. i asked him…. how does one afford such time…committing crime…. is that your career my darling… my dear???

living in fear… of the next piece of sky…falling…. catching himself calling….. out in the dark…. no one hears… cuz its all been a farse…. the mirrors… the smoke…. make a healthy person choke…

not laughing at the joke, cuz it was always on him…. centrifuge spin…separating him from the truth, damaged in his youth, and never strong enough to grasp the lesson, the message, instead, rage and self pity engulfed this once beautiful city….. and now…. like the roman ruins…. aqueduct victim.

light way…lost…tossed…. now a beggars broth…. drink out of whatever pond one can happen upon.

there is a way out…. no need to play or shout, go in…then go out….

tell one the secrets of the impending days…ways …. know it all astray ….its a new day … the subtle the stronger … the quieter the longer….

same ol same ol???? not interested… simply this…

Buckstarr says…. live …love….. share….. he whispered it in my ear….. he doesnt talk much… but when he does…. it means everything… ;) ))

so now i leave you just for a spell…live another day to tell … you … me….

so much to share…but this was just a quick note, never ever a joke…. i tell u true the buckstarr did spoke… no i dint smoke…

i love u all so…

be back in a jiffy…spiffy….promise wont take so long….

to offer you a new day and a new song….

love u all

xoxo

Siri Dyal

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the birth of a new world

Posted on October 7, 2011 by Siri D

Hello…. welcome to the birth of you. we could not have possibly thought things were going to stay the same…. they never have… they never will…. things change Kundun….just like that.

when we least expect it…or for some… have expected it…. Need 2 Feed.” everyday more and more this composition has taken on life…. and it is exciting….uprisings all over the world… like an immune system circling in on its cancer that it has identified…. namely greed, oppression….. it has reached its apex…. and by now we are seeing the effects of it….

if we view our selves as one body… one system…. its not much different than a sick body that has become out of balance…. it is fighting for its life…. in the human body …. all systems depend on all other systems and function to be healthy… things can be out of balance for a while and a system can still function…. but, after sometime, one part of the system will have to borrow strength from another part of the system to keep function….. and if it is not rectified… collapse will occur…. this is what happened with us…. the build up has been coming for some time…. and we had a chance to reverse it… but we kept pushing for status quo to stay the same…

resisted change…and we still do resist… but now, we will have to surrender to the inevitable a double dip recession, no jobs, on and on and on…. these are not the things i am speaking of… no…not at all…

these things are mild and predictable….

i am speaking of a place where money or no money….. wont do humanity any good….. we will have to rely on each other…. re establish our humanity…. our priorities….

now , i was not a y2k’r and the things i say i say with great prudence…. i have to.

it would be nice… if it were more nice…. no care of over population, over reproduction, how can the earth support all of this, not just in the human species but the over breeding of the animal kingdom, while depleting our forest and plant kingdom…

i see women with babies in carriages and three more on some sort of leash, walking down the street with their friend who has 3 or 4…. and i think…. will they be able to raise them responsibly to send out a purposeful good person into society??? i dont know… but i also dont know if they will be granted this privilege to live and grow…. for cataclysmic events are to occur , and masses will be gone….

in a non personal way…. a cleansing…. and so i feel a sadness when i see so many young kids… with an uncertain future… unknowing…… it is arrogant to think we cannot be exterminated off the planet… we are fleas on our mothers back, and we dig, and blow up, and poison and disrespect our very home…… we cannot think this can be maintained,,,

and what are the parents teaching their children….to respect the planet….to change…. i want to believe they are but, the evidence points to the contrary….more consumption… more trash on the ground… blatant disrespect for nature, as if….. the planet is our trash can…and we are here to consume… and produce waste….

dont think so friends… dont think so.

i dont want to be so harsh…. but whats about to happen…. will be the harshest…. we cannot settle it with rallies… or bombs… oppression…even a great paying job…. nope….

were on that part of the roller coaster u know the part…. the weight of humanity is at a critical mass..literally, and figuratively …. that it is going down that steep incline super fast…super scary… this is where we are …

so … i guess… put ur hands in the air….. and enjoy the ride…..

just enjoy it…. surrender to it… its all we can do at this point…

if i am completely wrong… then tell me….. why are all the worlds wealthiest people living sub terra….. or at least building sub terra…. are they aware of something we are not aware of…

like inside trading… it is legal for all congress people and their aids to inside trade…. it is a fact…. check ur laws ….so in the way that this is true…and not public knowledge… understand … that the everyday person…. will only be privy to the information that is allowable to disseminate…. and this can either be true… or manufactured to evoke a certain….. reaction.

I think that they didnt see this coming…. the powers that be… understand… there is power in numbers..and the numbers of the oppressed are an impressive number indeed… the uprisings all over the planet…. some rise for freedom, so for money, some for revenge…. or anger….. humanity is waking up…. i guess…. we had no choice …. the pain became un bearable…. and so that it woke us out of the coma we were in

the coma of comfort, compliance, and condition….

hello fellow earthing….. good morning….

nice to be here with you today, and experience life right here right now….. with all the excitement…. and revelation unfolding before our very eyes….

we will make it through…and the atma will recover……

but boss up, dont blame…. or scream, or cry, we did this…we allowed it to happen…. we liked the candy of forgetfulness…dullness…. indifference to compassion….

so…. now…empathy can embody you…if you allow it….

do not fear…. accept…. love… smile…give…

this……………….. can change the world.

one

Siri

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poetry..the prophecy of peace…. or….

Posted on October 4, 2011 by Siri D

she wished it could have stayed small, she wished it hadn’t grown tall…. no not all….
the corner stone of the monument…. facing North East, three feet wide… and six feet deep
time capsule buried deeply beneath… deeply deeply beneath.

for a while she stayed, for a while she played, and for a while, she behaved…. stealthily engaged… only to gain
experience…wisdom…. knowledge…not something taught in college…much more esoteric… ethereal… the more subtle, the more real.

to touch but not to feel, to mend, but not to heal…. this had become humanities appeal.

hark! hark! sang the lark, standing on a branch in a park…. she spoke of engagement…that had ended in derangement…estrangement…. a split….. somewhere along the line….we lost the other half…and that word was kind…

that sweet sweet bird… she sang all in verbs…as if to provoke… a cleansing note… a hue, a tune…. a fragment of reflection…. i understood… and she knew i would

still, steady as she walked along…the haunting melody of that haunting song….its been so long… how can we go on?

open eyes of earthings struggle…. torturer, abused, in fear they huddled… for any type of comfort .. or warmth…. eaten and beaten….and not one thank you…or even for that matter…a how do you do?
could this be true….as my pink turned to blue…. a faster color a stifled pew….

down in prayer position the mudra of acceptance… not to be confused with tolerance… emotion would do us no good here…for we must remember… the maya is illusion… the slaughter is intrusion…into the sacred heart of our onesness….yet, it has reached the atma, the cries, the lies, the ties, the sighs…. my oh my …we have over multiplied…

taught … to grab a piece…sink ur teeth…. shake it hard… until it bleeds… suck me, fuck me, i know i dont know ur name, but trust me, this will be worth your time… what is time??? lay down, spread it…. it all will be fine…… and this behavior…to both…………… is so unkind.

for each and every creature… is truly sublime…. we forgot who we are… and we come together… to re-member….. to our own club…. our own hub… with every beat of her heart… it beats the rhythm of love….. oh but what is love….can we break it down….. do you think its about the fox and the hound…. the dollar to the pound…. the feather of the weight….

ancient civilization, come to mind…. as i sit and unwind….. they warned us, but never scorned us, for they are our parents… and they loved us…. entrusted us… to this splendor and beauty … so marvelous, it slipped away one tree at a time… one bullet… one pine…. collateral…. indifference…. those people… its just a dog…… yes… let the poor man die…. he is poor!!! they screamed…. we want it bloody…and we want it like war…. to hell with the score…… just ignore…. ignore….ignore.

turn the page … diversion diversion for more illusion…. bought and sold confusion….. vote for me please.

hey man…as long as i have beer in a can….c to the span….. something to jam….. and forget who i am…im fine…got mine…. always want a little more…. even if it means…. that kid dont eat tonight… thats right… who cares… got my gates and my stairs…. the ascend all the way to heaven… where i close the door…. pay the whore…. ask for more? see the door. slam bam thank you mam…i get you next time… if i let u in… he says with a devilish grin…. off u go now…. ur lifes about to spin.

Hopi, and Mayan, all foretell… this story and right now u should listen well….. we’re at a time in space where our collective disgrace has reached an apex bringing us to this inevitable vortex… the great cleansing has now begun…. the white depression…has taken hold…. sinking low…. grabbing our minds… our hearts and souls, there is nothing to console…. we did not stop it….
we did not drop it….

vanity was our mission, no real hugging and no real kissin, only a ticket and a lonely admission…. your all so beautiful… and i had to let you know… before i let you go…
life…a constant stream… of ebb…and flow…. the yin to the yang… the pleasure to the pain… sunlight and rain…. recipe of life…spice…. gratitude, benediction, reverence taught by affliction ….

can we make it? i dont know…. but something i guess….is we cant fake it….not this time, not on this level… the spiritual battle…. of war and peace…. mountains and the beach… they all have their say…. and when that day come…. what a day…. what a day…..

all i can say… is pray…. meditate, congregate…with love… and friendship while we still have it, flowers in the yard smell them out of habit, a tall tree, grab it, kiss it…. tell it… you will miss it….
if it come a day….. the minutes fall away…… tick tock… the countdown on the clock…Mayan…and Hopi, ascendants of yore…. the voice of pain and silence upon them no more….

mother earth…. she is not a whore!!!! they dont scream…. because they said what they mean….. millennia ago before the things that we now know… unknow…. please unknow… stop… to show…some compassion… for some who cant afford the latest fashion, make compassion, ur passion…. this is love in action…

all she had to give, she gave freely, and we all were to share the bounty….. there are of course laws of nature, which have been heinously broken… trespasses to all … and most unspoken…

secretly they met… to move underground… thinking that one day…. they would come around…. left hand in and one button open this hand unseen… not just a token…. and sometimes words are less powerful if spoken

seven waves, in seven days, seven rays, and seven gates, seven traits, for seven saints…all to hold the feather and the weight…

i’ll try she cried..with every drop until the seventh sign….still compassionate for the earthbeing kind….. making a case…. pleading not a waste…. dont act out in haste, please she cried….
the silence was dark, only a lark … in a park…..

four hundred and forty four days more…. she’d hoped she could even the score…. for twelve than three…. still a chance… to sing the song… of lost romance… we once owned …honed… all of us Isis and Osiris upon our throne…. split…to dimensions unknown …fragmented…. Isis, can put the pieces together once again…. sacrifice her life… just to save a friend….. for she knew nothing in this world would ever be the same…. from the ocean to the plain…….

and still laughter in refrain… insane insane, the deaf dumb and blind stake their claim…still worth the effort…. but measured and accepted….
not counting… never affected….infected..or even rejected…. always sovereign ….like the Solomon…. wise … unattached… giving help when asked….

but… only when asked…. the task …. has never been personal…. only universal to the principal…. maybe even a challenge or a bet…. a game table … in a heavenly set….. put our coins on the table… and off to prove… or disprove the wager…. but just in case in the Georgia state, the neo human guide stones were placed…. for those who would make it through… those who scoffed…at those who knew…..

nothing gained … nothing proved…. just a bet in a heavenly set. still not over…. not….. quite……………………………….yet.

Siri D.

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